CEL

moved !

2009-08-19T13:53:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY !

Please relink me, thank you :D

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Leave your comments there by clicking the word ' comments '

Thank you &

sorry for the trouble :)

divert your attention to onsugar !

2009-08-11T16:36:00.002+08:00

Trying out at a new site temporarily :

www.colouredstars.onsugar.com

:) See you there !

to Raihanah : Hahaha yep , assignments are hell !

Jiayou anyway :)

to Pweiwen : I take Jap at Ikoma Language Centre :)

better off without

2009-08-01T22:53:00.002+08:00

Memories overwhelmed my mind
But I know you couldn't care less .

I thought I could temporarily free from story telling after Thursday's exam , mentor texted to tell me that I have to do story telling during the last attachment this coming Tuesday . And she's going to be observing . Now I have to find another story because I can't use the same one I used for STB exam . But I guess I can get through it :) The exam was a much bigger deal , afterall .

Oh well , I'm still working on my Wricom essay ! I wanna be free of essay , srsly . Drained of English brain cells ); A huge change from the past , suddenly I'm so overloaded with English . The conclusion and touch up , and I should be done . Can't wait :)
And there's still that ITA exam , Friday ! I only know what's a RAM and ROM . The rest is still not in my brain , hahaha .

If I had one wish , I wish I could control my brain .
Why does the nights seem so hard to get over before falling into sleep .
Just never fails to creep in .
Memories are such deep imprints in life .
Everything else is fading , just not the pain .
It keeps getting harder , so much strength needed to overcome it .
I'm exhausted inside .

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TAG REPLIES ;

to JOANNA : Hahaha thanks :) I like it too ! The fonts stand out alot .

to Candice : It's alright , I understand :) No worries .

affinity tends to surprise me

2009-07-31T17:32:00.010+08:00

The week is over :) Yay !

It's a major relief , no kidding :D Hahaha .

Though there were like quite a few events during the week ,

time seemed to pass quite fast !

I was late on Monday again . Sorry Jolene ! Hahaha .

I won't be late again :)

Thanks to me being not punctual , we didn't get to sit together during lecture .

Early lunch with clique & Saunders , enjoyable :)

Project meeting there after ,

but we didn't do anything much /:

Something happened & I had the shock of my life .

It caught me so off guarded ! Wow .

LOL !

Advanced birthday dinner for Daddy at Swensens :)

Strawberry sorbert for dessert , yummy ! ♥

Attachment was a drag this week , not sure why .

Tuesday & Wednesday were short days :)

Handed up my 1500word essay & FP workbook . Yay !

Great relief :D

Yesterday was a big day ! Hahaha .

Attitude by coffee lady during tutorial . She was in a total bad mood !

Story telling exam followed .

Everything during my story telling happened quite quickly !

It was like all over in a flash .

I didn't forget my lines . Happy :)

I rehearsed my story about 15 - 16 times before the actual , haha .

My grade still unknown though ,

but the most vivid comment that Ms Chong gave me was :

Celine , you should smile more . You looked so stern throughout .

LOL ! Too bad , I couldn't see if I was really that stern .

Pasta cooked by Mummy for lunch , J class :)

Awesome !

Just found out that JLPT has three components that include LISTENING !

WTG . ( Jolene , you're starting to influence me )

The worst thing is ,

there's no replay , no repeats ):

STRESSED !

I really need to start working EXTREMELY the hard for my Jap !

240 / 400 is the passing mark .

セリーヌ、がんばって！:)

Today was fun :)

Coffee lady was quite nice , to begin with . Started on Flash ,

after my stupid dreamweaver abandoned me /:

We played ice breakers during Child dev .

The change is good :)

My group came out with the two games ,

the second one was dramatic !

Lunch-ed at Newton Circle with Daddy & Mummy :)

It's gonna be another busy weekend !

Mug for ITA exam , which Im not very motivated to do so . Haha

Finish up my Wricom essay , Jap homework .

Time never seem to be enough ! Why is that ?

TAG REPLIES ;

to Cher : Yes my dear , I will try my best :) Thanks !

to Raihanah! : Hahah not wasting time luh , just chill for awhile . LOL

Yep , lets work hard tgt :) Jiayou !

to Esther : Thanks , I'll keep that in mind :)

to Joanna : Relink-ed :)

to gloria : Thanks :)

what a regret !

2009-07-26T19:41:00.003+08:00

PROCRASTINATING

it's what I do best !

It srsly doesn't require skills manzx !

I'm almost to the end of my patience level . Frustrated over my 1000word essay , srsly .

It takes up half of my overall grade for Wricom !

* faints *

Nothing seems to be coming out of my brain , ugh .

And worrying that what has been written is not relevant .

This week is gonna be one hectic week .

Wricom first draft by Tuesday ,

Wednesday hand in FP 1500word essay and workbook

and

story telling on Thursday !

I wish I could skip this week );

count down , less than a month to holiday !

srsly can't wait , on the verge of giving up again /:

wish me luck to survive this week :)

your words can definitely make a difference

[/edited]

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Amanda's such a dear , hahaha .

When I told her about my STB exam ( story telling ) on Thursday , she said -

Once upon a time, there lived little girl, named Celine.

She's the nicest girl on earth and I love her so very much.
the end, short and sweet. :D

♥

You & Jolene are friends I can never live without !

My stupid essay isn't moving , sadness /:

IT'S STAGNANT , STAGNANT !

Laziness is getting to me . Don't want to go to school tmr !

All of a sudden , I wanna leave everything behind and fly to Japan :)

tough points of life

2009-07-24T16:29:00.014+08:00

super overdue photos !

The week was short .

E-learning for 4modules . GREAT feeling of not having to attend tutorials :)

Heavily drama indulgence ♥

I love absoulte boyfriend , it's an awesome drama & the best thing is , it's in Japanese !

Today's a terrible day . I really felt like cursing and swearing , srsly .

But I know I couldn't , it's not right . School for 2hours of ITA . Coffee lady seemed to be pms-ing . And she gave me a shit grade for my newsletter ): I'm truly disappointed about the fact that I spent so much time and effort on it . However , lesson was enriching :) I learnt quite alot on DW , and had much fun with Waiwan !

Another disappointment was my first FP essay .

Now , I'm crushed . Loss of confidence to hand in my 1500word essay , srsly ! No confidence ):

First time , in a long time , that I felt so siann about my grades . Wow

Exams are coming up .

Next thursday , story telling ! The rest are in AUGUST !

& Did I mention about how relieved I felt when I finally found a story ?

I was so grateful to Clavin :) If not , I still been having nightmares about story telling and worrying about it .

When will there be an end to assignments ?

A 1000word essay draft due next Tuesday . And wts , I'm only at my 65th word -.-

My brain is falling me so badly .

All this keeps reminding me of you .

No one ever knows .

tag replies ;

to Raihanah! : AGREED ! Burn them , ahahaha .

to XUEQI : WOW ! That's evil , hahaha . Eat apple only also wanna feature -.-

to Cher : Hahaha thanks :) It's always a pleasure to be drama-ing !

to Syafiqah : DEFINITELY :) Anytime , I don't mind playing !

i wanna know

2009-07-23T22:24:00.004+08:00

たのしくないです。

どして！どして！

kill me please !

2009-07-18T18:46:00.002+08:00

A STOMPer saw 2 secondary school students munching on apples in an SBS bus and wondered why this happened as they are supposed to be smart.
Wei Seng told STOMP via email today (Jul 9):

"Spotted 2 Kent Ridge secondary students enjoying their apples in a public bus."

They are well educated so how come this still happen?

I was blog hopping and happened to see this . LOL , kr is mentioned for its students eating on the bus -.- I don't get what has eating apples gotta do with being smart , srsly .

I'm getting irritated , very irritated ): boooooo .
TO HELL WITH ASSIGNMENTS !
I thought the hardest part of doing an essay is how to start it , but no . I realised it's the ending that's a killer . I don't know how to end my FP essay , I really have no idea . I srsly wanted to pull my hair out because nothing is coming to me . It's damn frustrating ttm manzx !

Unproductive day , and I really this would stop . And time to stop in its tracks as well .
I wish the end of July won't arrive so soon . The best is I could skip and not go through July . Submission of FP essay - 29July
STB story telling (exam) - 30 July
I'm not worried about my essay , the ending might just lose me a few bunch of my hair if I pull them out in the process of completing the essay . I'm freaking more worried , a whole lot more worried about the story telling . I haven't even thought of what story I'm gonna to tell , what prop to use and how to survive that three minutes . 50percent of my grade , *big faints*

ITA final written exam , 3 August . Crazyyy ! All about ITA theory , and what's the best thing , I didn't even listen to her talk about all the lecture stuff . How smart ! I'll just have to read the slides and mug for it .

On thursday , I had a crazy thought about giving up Jap , for real . I told Jolene , I wanted to just walk the hell out of the classroom while the class was in session . Seemed to have lost my interest , or was it because of some other factors ? Worst news , せんせい would be going back to Japan soon and not coming back ! I really wish she was kidding us . I don't wanna a change of teacher ! And I really don't have the confidence I would even pass JLPT4 , let alone pass with flying colours .

I really tempted to have a runaway plan . ( I'm just kidding , why can I run to ? )
How am I to survive ? I don't know .
I could use some of your company ,
some of your concern .

I wanna break down , so give me my tears back .
I wanna run , run , run away from reality .

BCE day

2009-07-15T14:58:00.003+08:00

I survived :) Hahaha . I survived yesterday !

Actually , yesterday was like not a very big deal . LOL

Attachment was not so enjoyable at the start /: I was bored , for the first time during attachment . Unbelievable ! The teacher came in late , so we had to accompany the children as they play the toys that were given to them . I almost died , kept looking at the clock and see how time crawled by ! After play , our mentor gathered everyone the floor and asked me to choose one child at a time to come up and sing for the class . It's a simple task right ? But I kind of screwed it up quite badly ):

At first , it went quite well with the first two children . But it got worst as they all started to fight for their turn . And the worst was , two of the boys started to hit and kick each other . Caleb got boxed on the face by another boy , he broke into tears and that made me freaked out man ! Thankfully , the teacher already came to the center by that time . Left the matter to her to handle :) I would have gone crazy if the teacher didn't come in the nick of time !

Mentor later then asked me to help assist the teacher at PG (playgroup) as the children are going out for outdoor . Charmaine , one of the girls kept crying . I had a tough time trying to coax her ! She cried non stop , and hugged me . She finally calmed down and I managed to wear her shoes for her :) So relieved , you know . Hahaha . She's adorable , she smiled really sweetly as the wind blew through her hair when we went taking a stroll :)

Fed her during lunch . She spat out the last bit of food and started crying at the end , AGAIN ! Of course , it was time to coax her again . I even had to bathe her ! I can't believe my ears when the teacher told me to bathe them . They are barely two years of age !! And a crying child to bathe , whoa . So terribly nice of her /:

She cried throughout her entire bath , and even wanted to hug me in the process . I wouldn't mind but she was wet and with soap all over !

After Charmaine was Joyce . I was already suffering from a backache in the process of showering Joyce and thinking of the reminding children I've to bathe was a torture /: But thank God !

Mentor came to save me :) I seriously heaved a loud sigh of relief . Hahaha

I could like barely straighten my back after that !

Observation of the N2 :) Shariman was so cuteee . He would turn to look at me after every mouth he took and smiled before he ate again . Hahaha . Eugene and XuYi is cutee too ♥

Lunch-ed at home then went for Wricom . With Jolene and Carina after that :) Practiced a bit of volleyball before the match .

Yesterday's match was .. horrible , terrible ? ): The rest , no comments . I felt I could have played better , but then again it's team kind of game . I wish it's not compulsory for next Tuesday , it's a waste of time to turn up ! But for the attendance for the module , looks like it's a no choice . booooo /:

Today's BCE day (: No tutorials , I'm happy that I don't have to turn up in school . But I seriously regretted waking up so early just to do the assignments . Having to think that I've to log in at the time I start tutorial , dumb . I could have slept in and woke up late ): Finally finished everything already though :) So I'm free for the rest of the day !

Super long weekend coming up :)

Monday - no lecture

Tuesday - no wricom , only attachment

AWESOME !

Thinking of skipping ITA . Is it very stupid to just go to school for 2hours of ITA ? /:

It's for two days in a row , cause there's no STB too .

Happy that next week is going to be a short week :)

OH ! I'm still freaking out about the STB exam .

howhowhowhowhowhow ..

As I walk along life's pathway ,

though the way I cannot see ,

I shall follow in Christ's footsteps ,

for He has a plan for me .

- Thiesen

whoa monday

2009-07-13T17:35:00.002+08:00

a really overdue photo , love the sky :)

Away with Monday Blues , today is a short day and that's perhaps why I love Mondays :) Only two hours of lecture and that's it . Woohoo . I was late , AGAIN ! I've been late on Mondays like for three weeks in a row already , hahaha . Today seemed like a wasted trip to school , barely two hours and I was out of school already ! Lecture with Jolene , after lecture with Adelina , Waiwan and Eileen :)

A wasted day .

Other than , I learnt quite abit from lecture :) I don't know why I can't absorb during lectures , only when I re-write my notes then am I able to understand ! I was supposed to mug a lil or do either one of my essays , but I did none ): I only managed to find a few relevant stuff for tmr's wricom .

Yesterday , was a really crazyyy day ttm manzx . Ha !

A & J , thank you :) Somehow we emo-ed together . Screw my emotions , away with it :) Something else came about to me feel a whole lot better , no kidding ! It was a good medicine for my sadness :) Woohoo , big love and countless smiles ♥

I was so damn high after that , mad Cel , haha . A good example of a 360degree change in mood :)

Oh crap . Tmr is gonna be a longggggggggg day . Would I be able to survive it ?

Morning , attachment with those adorable lovelies :)

Afternoon , Wricom which make me sleepy

Late evening , volleyball match .

Kill me , it's like madnesssssssssssssssssss !

And I would most probably , or rather definitely miss the start of Red Thread's last episode ):

Alright , I'm going to leave the screen now . Staring too much into this rectangle box /:

And did I mention , Clavin brought home an icecream for me just now . Aww , so nice of him :) But it freaking tasted like I was eating toothpaste -.-

Oh well , byes :)

Wish me luck for tmr !

Bon voyage Best :D

I will remember your words ! It means alot to me , because they come from you :)

you can make me feel better

2009-07-12T19:38:00.002+08:00

Introducing Benton Paul :) A new hottie , thanks Raihanah ! Hahaha .

These two days of the weekend have been fruitful :) Cheers ! I sat and worked on my FP essay for almost 8hours . Of course there were much distractions along the way ! I'm not superwoman .

Result of that ;

- I managed to complete at least 3/4 of my essay :)

- A great sense of accomplishment !

- Just need to do a little more , some improvement

and done .

- And I got myself a really bad backache !!

Must be getting old , hah .

I literally felt my brain been drained , really exhausted ): After the essay , I went on working on my Jap worksheet until my brain could no longer take it . Today , I worked on my FP booklet and finished up Jap :) Anyway , the freaking volleyball match is on either tmr or Tuesday ! The worst part is , I totally forgot the name of our team . So did Jolene and Si ying . What to do ? I don't know ..

I'm feeling down now . What a drastic change from last night /: I can't feel a smile coming around , even a lil sense of happiness . There's no one , nobody . Mood's all lost , I stare at my work and feel no motivation . I stare at my game and feel no motivation as well . I feel that I should perhaps cry out my feelings , maybe I would feel better . But , everything has just gone numb . I could no longer find tears easily like I used to , why is that ? You don't understand , she doesn't understand , he doesn't understand , they don't understand . Nobody does . I was on clouds 9 yesterday , but now it's totally different ):

come back to me won't you , my true smiles ..

When trials overwhelm our souls

And tempt us to despair ,

We need to reach out to the Lord

And trust His tender care - Sper

tag replies ;

to Candice : No problem :) Glad that you're alright already !

to Syafiqah : I'm not too sure , it's either tmr or Tuesday .

Sorry .

basking in the goodness

2009-07-11T16:42:00.011+08:00

HI HECTIC WORLD :)

Yes , I have been really busy and tired .

But nevertheless, I always look forward to blogging :)

Monday ;

Lecture , short project meeting ,

followed by badminton with Clavin , Peiwen , Xying and MrLai :)

Awesome timeeee !

I miss badminton tons manzx ):

And am glad to meet up with Best during her short visit

back to sg :)

Tuesday ;

Attachment almost killed me ! Hah .

It was dead tiring , but I still managed to walk

out of the center surviving :)

Three hours with those N1 was both exhausting and

enjoyable :)

I even had to help with the putting of mattress

covers . Oh gosh !

And the teachers didn't even help .

But Yi Xun made my day :)

So nice of him , ♥

He gave me a kiss on my cheek :)

Which caught me by a huge surprise !

Both he and Li Heng gave me hugs too .

Aww , those adorable kids :)

Lunch-ed at home ,

Wricom followed after that .

And I survived the day ,

despite how laborious it was :)

Thank God !

Wednesday ;

Presentation was first thing in the morning .

I must say , I was quite well prepared for it !

Ah , but apparently things turned out quite differently ):

Before my turn ,

my mind failed me by going completely blank .

I couldn't even remember most of what I've spent so

much effort memorising ):

So basically for my part ,

I guess it didn't go as well as I hoped it would .

Disappointed /:

Lunch-ed with Jolene then went to mug at the library .

Something made my day :)

But also brought along another feelings !

Volleyball was alright :)

Can't deny ,

I love it now . Hahaha

Thursday ;

Lecture during ITA was one killer .

Zomg !

However , STB was as always , the best :)

We got the chance to laugh and relax .

Watched Miss S'pore Universal 07 ,

to comment on speech skills !

Dad and Mummy were such sweeties :)

One drove me to J class from school ,

another prepared cake for me to eat on the way :)

Bought another two tops before class .

Gotta watch out for those shopping temptations ,

hah .

J class is getting tougher as the weeks pass .

Sometimes , I have second thoughts about taking JLPT4 ):

:D But I don't think I will , I can't give up my dream !

Cabbed back with N .

Friday ;

Photoshop during ITA , woohoo :)

Interesting , I'm looking forward to learn more !

And I learnt that if you wanna train your patience ,

do photoshop :)
It provides you good training , no kidding !

I almost went mad , haha .

A short presentation by 5 of my classmates during CD tutorial

was fun :)

Had many good laughs ! Woots .

To top it all ,

I'm satisfied with my CD test paper done a few weeks back :)

Thank God , very much !

Movie with Wangying at Vivo after tutorials :)

Lunch-ed at LJS !

Dinner with Amanda and Jolene at my favourite ,

Din Tai Fung :)

We walked around JP aimlessly , with my yogurt ,

Amanda's sorbert and Jolene's icecream :)

Camwhor-ed and webcam-ed at night !

I had great fun webcam-ing with those girls :D

But it was a great pity I wasn't able to

sleepover at Amanda's !

Sleepover again soon right ? :D

So much to say , so much to do .

This weekend is totally bombared with assignments .

Oh my !

From my FP 1500word essay , to Wricom 1000word essay

( which I learnt about on Tuesday ) , to FP booklet ,

to Jap worksheet and the list never ends .

HUGE SCREAM !

And I'm so freaking worried for the coming up STB assessment ):

I really am . Damn scared !

But there's one thing I feel so relieved about ,

there's no PBL on hand to do for now :)

A breather :D

Alright , gotta get back to my essay !

Moving through it quite smoothly but exhausting my brain cells ):

JIAYOU EVERYONE :D

I read about this ;

if your heart is filled with sadness ,

or you struggle with despair ,

turn to God ,

who will bring you gladness when you sense His love and care

- Sper

Meaningful , I love it :)

Tag replies ;

to Raihanah : Hahah yep , new blogskin again :P

YES , it's the weekends again ! So happy , hahaha .

Updated :) Yeap , I saw the photos of him .

He's really the cute , hahaha :)

to Candice : Yep already did :)

to Brenda : Hi Brenda :)

putting my trust You

2009-07-05T17:47:00.002+08:00

tag replies ;

to Syafiqah : HAHAHA . Now you know :)

to Cher : Thanks :) I love it too ! Haha .

Yeap , meet up real soon :) Love !

Laughter has been a gift of God's goodness that carries us

through some of life's darkest days .

The joy of the Lord has often been our refuge (Neh. 8:10).

Ahhh ,

why does the weekend pass so quickly ? );

Hope it would be another good week !

Alright , back to completing more assignments !

thank God it's Friday

2009-07-03T15:22:00.002+08:00

Yes , thank God ! It's Friday ;D And lets welcome July'09 !

This week was quite a fast one , for me ! First week of term after the break . Monday lecture with Jolene :) Note taking , slides after slides . Lunch-ed at Makan place then went to do project . We didn't do much , cause we are only left with PPCM :) A real relief after handing in Child dev PBL ! But we felt rather weird with nothing on hand to do . Dismissed earlier then went to library cafe with Adelina , but she left first . Had to wait for Dad to pick me alone .

Attachment on Tuesday , K2 :) But LiXuan gone to Malaysia , sadly . Edith was there though , I like her too ! Hahaha . And Edith tends to amaze me so much ! One time , she showed me that she was able to write chinese characters with both her hands . Can you ? Hahah . This week , during outdoor , she fell and had a few cuts at her knee . Not a single tear from her :) So brave ! If it was me , I would have just scream and all ! Hahaha . Home for lunch after attachment . Nap then went to school for Wricom consultant :)

Wednesday , PPCM / FP / Volleyball :) As usual , FP was fun and enjoyable ! Volleyball was alright . I'm happy , cause I was able to serve successfully at least 5times in a row :) And we found out Coach's very the lazy ! Hahaha . Yesterday , ITA & STB ! Aww , I missed my ITA lecturer , not . HAHAH . But what we are being taught now , it's getting interesting and engaging :) STB was as always , AWESOME :) My top most enjoyable tutorial ! Woohoo . But I'm not looking forward to the next assessment , coming up in 3weeks /: Needa start preparing already ! Rushed to J class after tutorial , was late for about 15min . Skipped lunch ); But lesson was fun ;D Though I was freezing in there , I guess most of us were . Train-ed back after class :) Today is a short day ! ITA in the morning :) Good tutorial ! I learnt many new things that interests me , hahaha . Child dev was over in quite a breeze :) Laughs and small talks with Waiwan and Adelina . Group discussions etc . Lunch-ed at home :)

Many things shall be done during the weekends ! And my M)phosis bag , Mummy agrees to pay for meeee ;D Oh my , so ecstatic ! Enjoy the weekends , people :)

I thank God for every day that is given to me .

unexpected gleam

2009-06-28T21:11:00.003+08:00

hair bands are such great accessories :)

and they come in pretty colours !

weakness for colours :P

hahaha .

just had dinner not long ago .

damn filling /:

today ,

I have been eating for the sake of eating .

& that's really bad .

I don't even feel hungry or the crave to eat today :)

wonder when I can get back to work and decrease that weight of mine !

LOL .

today's quite a great day !

Im feeling better .

I woke up late , as usual :)

I was so lazy at the thought of travelling all the way downtown

for J class ,

so I decided to go on Thursday instead :)

And talking about this ,

I remembered I haven't called to make replacement class .

Shitttt /:

I just called ,

working hours ended at eight !

will just have to call tmr then , haha :)

I started with my 1500 word essay , you know :)
Im so proud of myself !

All of a sudden , today I woke up deciding to be hardworking

and do my essay .

And I did :)

Of course , it's not complete .

1500 words is madness !!

im on my 438th word already though :)

I took like 15 minutes to start off .

I was seriously stuck at how to start /:

Anyway ,

I've one month to complete it :)

So I shouldn't be so stressed about it !

But really glad I started working on it already .

Thank God :)

I don't know why there was a sudden change in me this morning :)

But Im glad things are like this for today .

Life is indeed full of surprises !

I had an unexpected reason to smile today :P

Hahaha .

I'm still in love with that feeling :)

Back to reality , cel !

LOL .

School tmr .

one word : SIAN !

lecture and project meeting .

I should be able to survive :)

I found the photo for the form !

But Im not submitting it already .

Dad says it's best not to go due to the rapid rise in H1N1 .

Oh well .

That'll be a future opportunity :)

Pray that tmr shall be a good day :)

tag replies ;

to Cher : Oh , thanks girlfriend :) Yeah , I wish I can just

watch dramas all day ! Hahaha . Yup , I share that same feeling :P

Dread school manzx ! Suresure , hope to see you real soon :)

Love you !

to Janice : Thanks :) Come again soon !

to Raihanah : THANKS :D I'm feeling better today !

Yeap , I'll try my very best to study real hard :)

Love !

cel is a dumbass

2009-06-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

i want to cry , want to cry .

why can't the tears just flow non stop like a tap .

stupid .

i don't know if i should go for december's vietnam trip .

thinking ,

just submit the form .

anyway , still have to see if can qualify for the interview .

what are the odds .

but jolene decided not to go .

and i freaking can't find my photo for the form .

shitttt ass .

i have no idea where i put it .

it's ... somewhere

one module less for those who go for the trip .

that's a great deal .

im sure it would be a wonderful experience as well .

but there'll definitely be pre trip stuff .

JLPT4 exam is on 6dec and

the trip is 7dec .

sucks !

sometimes i really don't have the confidence

that im able to pass JLPT .

i must put in alot of effort to study real hard .

i wanna pass JLPT with flying colours .

and with my current level of determination &

shitty attitude towards my studies ,

i don't think i can go very far .

wts is wrong with me .

no one could show me that concern like you did .

pathetic .

time to find those tears and sleep .

that's why i miss your concern

2009-06-27T20:51:00.018+08:00

Cooked by Jolene :)I tell you to listen to me right ?! Don't try & be funny !

YO PEOPLE :) I'm back to blog , missed me ? Hahaha .
It has been quite a busy week for me ! Tons of things went on :)

On Monday , I was at the hospital ! My aunt totally got me unwanted attention . Called my name so loudly at the entrance of the hospital , wts -.- Anyway , we left shortly after Mummy settled in her room . Went for lunch then accompanied Clavin for his Gold Award test ! He passed :) A sure relief for him ! Happy for him that he managed to pass too :) Came back home then headed back to the hospital again in the night . Operation was a success :) Thank God !

Project meeting on Tuesday ! Worked with Adelina on Child dev , while Eileen & Adelle worked on PPCM :) Entertained by Eileen & Adelle , they were like so stressed out . Adelina and I totally felt guilty , like we didn't do anything much . Anyway , after the meeting , headed over to Mos Burger to grab a bite while waiting for Joey . Xinying joined to , so the both of them were like entertaining me :) Hahaha .

Met up with some others along the way then headed over to Mr Chan's condo . Badminton girls farewell bbq :D Started bbq-ing ! Okay , I didn't do anything to help /: Hahaha . I just played taiti all the way :D Thank you Eileen ! I know you did a lot with the bbq-ing :) And serving me the food ! Hohoho , I'm so honoured :) As usual , Mr Chan keeps talking crap to us , calling us stupid names . And Mr Heng too , but he left quite early . Random shots during the bbq , not taken by me :) But there's more , lazy to post ! I left quite early ): cause Dad wanted to fetch me back ! However , it was really enjoyable :) Feels so great to be with them . I really miss Secondary school days , alot ): Rahh !

Project meeting again on Wednesday . Headed over to the hospital after that to visit Mummy :) Thursday , we went to pick Mummy up . She could be discharged :) Happy ! Had lunch then went over for J Class . Bought a top before class , hahaha . Went to Mango to kill time cause I was there early :P Class was alright ! Was able to catch everything せんせい taught :) But I realised how handicapped I was , without memorising my かたがな . Went for more shopping after class , to get new shoes for school then went home :)

Met up with Amanda and Jolene yesterday :) Finally ! Train-ed to Bugis , crashed よしのや for lunch :) Yummy ! Went walking around . Bought hairbands :) Mine was with a star , and which cost me 18bucks . HAHAH , madness /: Slacked outside National library , chit chat and a few photos taken then crashed Jolene's place :) Jolene cooked pasta for us to eat ! Thank you :) It's really niceee . Camwhor-ed and video-ing of Amanda . It was really hilarious man ! But I don't think I'll post the video :) It's only for the viewing of the three of us ! And , I read a very interesting book , " I kissed dating goodbye " . Only read the first chapter , I learnt quite a lot :) Overall , the day was awesomeeeeeeeee ♥

I was quite accomplished today , I guess :) I completed my Jap worksheet , so RELIEVED ! Hohoho :) I learnt my dictation too & practiced かたがな ! Good right . Hahah . So I reckon I should go for J class tmr and not Thursday , just in case something crops up on Thursday !

Term break is over soooo soon ): That's saddening ! I'm so not looking forward to school , who is ? Hahaha . Anyway , must think positively :) 8 weeks to the 1 month holiday in September ! Wait for that . JIAYOU EVERYONE :)

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tag replies ;

to Cher : Thankyou , I'm feeling alil better already :) It's alright for not telling me luh ! Don't worry about it , just glad you're okay :) Love & miss you ! Always here for you yup :)

to Raihanah : HAHAHA ! Flirt with no one :P Set ! A movie date in Sept , looking forward :) And finally updated , hahaha !

to Candice : Will try to , thanks Special :)

to Susu : I'm in ECH , early childhood education :)

to Cus : LOL ! Why so sudden ? Linked :)

to pw : Children's behaviours etc . Yeap , learning about Piaget's theory and other theories too :) You ?

to Iris : Yeap , there is :) The coach didn't say don't have so yea , hahaha !

to Xiaoting : Hello :) Okay , thanks for leaving your url !

The Spirit of the Lord is upon me . "
- Luke 4:18

numb me

2009-06-21T19:34:00.003+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Yet another unproductive day ):

I spent like nearly two hours on one FP reflection

and im still in the process of copying it into the booklet .

Skipped swimming today ,

too lazy and not in the mood .

And thankfully I didn't go ,

Clavin told me it was a killer !

Thank God :)

I made a right decision of being lazy ! Haha .

Lunch-ed at Din Tai Fung .

Went to buy Fathers' Day present :)

Simple day .

Complicated mood .

Nothing new , I guess .

It's just time to procrastinate again .

I think I've lost my mind .

I didn't know what made me to do that ,

but whatever I find myself being stupid .

I couldn't sleep even though I turned in at almost one .

Tons of thoughts .

Im really tired and sick of living life .

It's just too peaceful .

Is peaceful good ?

I can't seem to put my mind to anything ,

my thoughts are everywhere .

I don't know how to say how I feel ,

and who to say them to .

I felt tears in my eyes .

At first ,

I held them back .

But when I wanted to cry ,

nothing came out .

The feeling was so numb .

im lost ,

really lost .

lastly ,

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY ♥

lay back on those memories

2009-06-20T19:44:00.014+08:00

Im back from chalet :) Time to start blogging !

Full day attachment was successful :) And it wasn't as tiring as I thought it would be . Adore the children so muchhhh :) They can just make your day ! Morning , it was with the N2 . Cookery session and outdoor play ! A boy kept hugging me and played with my hair , so cuteee :) While they had their nap , I had lunch then went over to the K1 to help the teacher . Chinese lesson with K1 ! Winnie injured herself ): Hope she gets better soon . I had to mop the floor cause Edith spilled porridge on the floor . I felt so bad when she thanked me while she was crying cause the teacher was like damn fierce /: Thankful , I knew how to mop the floor . If not , it would have been so embarrassing to say that Idk how to mop -.- Dad came to fetch me back , save me the energy of going back on my own ! Thanks :)

Went over to stay at Aranda country club from Wednesday to Friday :) Awesome family time ! Woohoo . Firstday - Immersed ourselves in a few hours of monopoly ! One hell madness , I lost really badly ): Went out for dinner , Jap food , free flow of drinks and icecream . Went around E!Bay for awhile before going back :) UNO & texting until 12am plus !

Secondday- Mummy went to buy breakfast for us . After which , we crashed wild wild wet :) Slides , shiok river , hot lifeguards ! Hahaha . There was seriously a really hot lifeguard :P Lunch was great too ! Left around 6plus , buy back dinner and went back to watch tv :) New round of monopoly after bathing ! This time , my luck was better :) I was actually winning . Haha !

Checked out in the morning . Headed over to E!Bay's acarade , spent a bomb there playing :P Went over to ECP for lunch cum dinner at Jumbo restaurant . Oh , my cereal prawns . The cereal prawns that they serve there is really great :) Must try ! Had chilli crab too , yummy ! And I paid for the meal , LOL . Basically , that's about everything in these four days :) ♥ family time ! Time really flies when we are having fun ! And , one week of break is over so sooon ): Siannn ! But it has been really eventful and fruitful so far :) I managed to finish most of my assignments , do some shopping and had good family time :D

Monday's a big day ! Hope everything goes smoothly :) Everything in God's hands !
I've been feeling better :) A relief . Past few days , it felt like I've been away from reality . But I am still thinking alot . Distraction would come in alot handy now ya know :)
Don't walk away when im talking to you ! This ain't no time for your bad attitude .

My Jap homework , an essay . Damn short luh ): -
わたしは去年の六月と十二月に日本へ行きました。家族とひこうきでいきました。ろくがつのてんきはすずしかつたです。そして、じゅうにがつのてんきはさむかつたです。にほんのひとはどてもすてきでした。にほんはきれいとにぎやかくにです。わたしはにほんのアイスクリームがすきです。わたしとおとうとはたくさいおみをかいました。ふじさんときんかくじへいきました。どてもすてきですね。ふじさんのゆきをしました。私はじゃしんぜんぷ２００まいとりました。旅行はとてもよかつたでしたが、たのしかつたでした。

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tag replies ;

to Candice : Hahaha cool ! Maybe we can go and buy tgt someday soon :)

to Syafiqah : Don't worry about it :) YES ! I went to shop :) Shopping is always fun ! Woohoo ~

to Cus : Every post emo ? :o Anyway , Thankyou :) Hah , I cry at night you also dk leh ! LOL

to Raihanah : Yesyes ! I wish I could do that :P You're enjoying too ! Hahaha

to Cher : Thankyou :) Yeap , that's life luh ! Rahh .

DINNER TIME :)
& I've been so unproductive today . Shittt ):

my faith is shaking

2009-06-15T12:29:00.004+08:00

Did I ever mention how much I appreciate both your company & love ?
I really do appreciate , seriously :) Thank you truckloads , my loves ! For everything ♥

I've been through quite a tough night on Saturday . You've no idea ! I couldn't get to sleep , I've no idea why . I went to bed at almost 1am and tossed and turned until it was about 2am . Woke up at like 9am to go swimming . I felt as if , I didn't even sleep at all /: But I still dragged myself up . Swimming didn't make things better , but the car trip there did :) Shit swimming drill . Thankfully , I could be excused for doing butterfly . I guess I would have been thrice as tired . The weather siren saved us from another 300m of swim :) Thank God !

Pepper Lunch for lunch :) Crashed Mango after that ! Woohoo ~ Shopping is so loveddd :D Mummy paid for my clothes . Thanks ♥ ! Rushed to J class after that . せんせい was back :) Lesson was alright , as usual ! But this week , we were loaded with tons of homework . * SCREAMS ! After lesson , headed over to Borders to look for Mummy & Clavin . Bought some stuff then continued shopping :) Girls will always be girls , Forever21 was flooded with tons of people . Zomg !

I went to hunt for clothes on my own cause Mummy & Clavin didn't wanna walk anymore . And lets just say that the hunt was quite successful :) In total , I bought 3tops , 1 dress , a pair of shorts , 1 skirt and a pair of sandals :D You won't wanna know what the total amount of items are , hahaha . What a spree ! I guess , no more massive shopping in the near future :P I felt so much better after such an occupied day :)

I finally got to shop , like I wanted to :) So away with it for now ! It's the term break now . But there's like tons to do , and only two weeks for everything . Some kind of break ); Oh well , that's life . Full day attachment tmr , 9am to 6pm ! Wonder if I would be able to survive . Wish me luck :)

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tag replies ;

to Cher : Awww , feel better soon kkays :) No problem ! I enjoy texting you anyway :)

to Raihanah : Manymany things ): I'll tell you soon ! Thankyou , I'll try to be happy :)

to Candice : Okayokay , I will try not to hate myself . Thanks :) Oh , but it's really cuteee !

to Amanda : Thankyou v much , love :D I really appreciate the hug ! Love you tooo :)

to Xintian : Yupp , I'll try to hate myself . Thanks :)

I get the message , very clearly alright .
it's quite a struggle to get over and accept .
but i guess there's nothing else i can do .

The Lord shall give that which is good .
-Psalm 85:12

Alright , back to burying my brain with PPCM ! Toodles :)

overwhelmed with disappointment

2009-06-13T21:47:00.002+08:00

can the days get better ?

currently so overwhelmed with disappointment that

tears are starting to appear .

simple fact ,

i just got too carried away .

i expected what seemed impossible to me now .

i told myself ,

i shouldn't feel sad or disappointed .

but i couldn't help it ,

i really cant .

i hate myself for being so weak ,

both spiritually and emotionally !

STB assessment went quite alright .

I got a B :)

Ms Chong said I was expressive at the dialogues ,

which was quite unexpected .

Im pretty conscious whenever I read in front of us .

She thought I did quite well ,

but I could have been louder at the dialogues !

I guess my loudness is always used at the wrong time .

Where did it go to during the test ? /:

Maybe I could have gotten an A ,

if I wasn't so conscious of myself and been louder !

Oh well ,

at least it was a B !

Lunch-ed with family after test at Wheelock

before gonna for J class .

Teacher was relief !

She talked as if she din't have enough strength :x

But overall ,

her teaching was quite okay !

Went over to find Mummy at her office and

studied Jap until she was ready to leave .

Child dev tutorial yesterday .

I was the first to reach class !

For the first time leh .

LOL

Barely half the class turned up for tutorial .

And class was over by 12.08am

when it started about 11am .

Wasted trip to school /:

Lunch-ed at Din Tai Fung with Clavin & Dad .

Went cycling downstairs

then went mad during a game of monopoly :)

Lovely time !

Mugging time .

I finally opened my PPCM textbook !

Bought it like about one month ago . LOL

I can just faint after reading a few pages ):

So siannnn .

All about classroom , more classroom .

Have to get back to doing my work !

So not mood appropriate ):

tag replies ;

to Cher : Thanks for leaving your url ! I guess it's inevitable

that we all feel out of place sometimes .

Don't worry so much :)

to Amanda : Thanks love :)

Love you too !

to Raihanah : Thanks for leaving your url !

Yes , another blogskin . Hand itchy :P

to pw : That's cool ! We can actually study tgt .

Common topics leh :)

to wh : Yeap , then you can enlighten me !

Some of His Words are so difficult to get the meaning .

I will always remember :)

i feel that it's so difficult to put a smiley face ,

let alone put up a smile .

慢长的等候让人特別失落

In my distress ,

I called upon the Lord .

Psalm 18:6

you made me crazier , so true

2009-06-10T18:47:00.002+08:00

damn it . I lost my mood to blog ):

i lost my ethusiasm

lets put it plain and simple .

Basically , Monday's Child dev went quite smoothly !

Thank God :)

At least I managed to answer all the questions so it's quite safe ,

for now .

Tuesday's attachement was really enjoyable :)

Second session with the K1s .

Aww , I just adore Winnie so much :)

Mingled with a few others as well .

They got so fasinated by my pen ,

that they were all snatching over it just to write with it in my book .

I had an experience of how to handle this situation ,

and it's so not easy !

But I'm sure it's not the worst case of snatching and pushing around .

Lunch-ed with Clavin and Dad :)

Headed back to school for Wricom ,

was quite productive this week .

And got a B+ for group blog .

Kudos to Adelle :)

Thanks , you did a great job on it !

Today ,

I went back for PPCM and project meeting .

Get well soon ,

Adelina :)

So happy that I don't have to wake up so early tmr & on Friday !

But I don't think I sound very happy -.-

shittt ,

what's wrong with me ? ):

im starting to get so obsessed .

things could always be simple ,

but im only human .

im simply just too greedy for more .

four plain words ;

i just hate myself

Lord ,

the trials I face at times seem too much to bear .

Im grateful, though, for the reminders in Your Word

that You will stay by my side and help me endure till You

call me Home . Amen

candy land , loves

2009-06-09T22:30:00.003+08:00

I.LOST.MYSELF

YET AGAIN

im stuck at how to do the plan of action !! Shittt ):

over with Child dev test , so relieved :)

Thursday is STB assessment ! screams .

wish me luck :)

~~new~~ blogskin .

i've used this before , i still like it until now :)

my itchy hand luh , tempted to change blogskin just now .

in the end , i couldn't find a suitable one .

nice but not user-friendly !

worst thing ,

i accidentally deleted my whole blog data stuff ):

dumbass .

i should have just left my blogskin alone !

cries .

So ,

please kindly leave your url(s) behind :)

I highly appreciate it .

thankyou :D

I felt the kind of happiness I didn't have in a really long time .

It's a truly nice feeling :)

Steps could be as light as feathers .

im amazed !

♥

tag replies ;

to pw : o.o me and who always go out ?

we can go out soon k :)

to Cher : Okayokay :) Glad you got them already !

I'll text you real soon :) Yesyes ,

he's soooo handsome . HAHAHA

to riaa : awww , thankyou :)

my 180th !

2009-06-06T23:48:00.003+08:00

Dream

Do me a favor
Tell me what you think about me
Tell me how you want this to be
Go out on a limb and just dream

Paint a picture
Choose your colors extra wise
Especially what you put on my mind
Imagine what it'd be like to touch the sky, yeah yeah

Whoa-oh
Your thoughts are gonna pick me up
Do you know it's good to feel too much?

Oh, you've got my head in the clouds
Oh, you've got me thinking out loud
The more you dream about me, the more that I believe
That nothing's ever out of reach, so dream, dream, dream

I breathe your visions
They pull me through the coldest of nights
They steer me towards that moment in time
When you show me what it means to you to be mine, yeah

Whoa-oh
Your giving me the will to try
Do you know
That there's happy in these eyes?

Oh, you've got my head in the clouds
Oh, you've got me thinking out loud
The more you dream about me, the more that I believe
That nothing's ever out of reach, so dream, dream, dream

Ha, it's like my birthday
Every time you look at me it's like the best day
Every time that you dream, yeah, yeah

Whoa-oh
Your thoughts are gonna pick me up
Do you know it's good to feel too much? Much?

Oh, you've got my head in the clouds
Oh, you've got me thinking out loud
The more you dream about me, the more that I believe
That nothing's ever out of reach, so dream, dream, dream

Dream, dream
The more you dream about me, the more that I believe
That nothing's ever out of reach so dream, dream, dream
Dream...

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Im keeping my fingers crossed , really hard . Please dont take my hope away ): Not now . Need some courage , some affinity !

to Cher : Oh really ! Try to left click , does a page appear ? :) If not , I shall send you soon . I uploaded four of them on fb though :) Aw , Im so attracted to that guy ! Damn handsome :P HAHAH ! It's me , sorrysorry ! I didn't reply , cause my text overshot alot ): I'll text you soon ! Yeap meet soon , maybe next week :) Loves .

Okay , sleep now ! Mug tmr :)

im trying to walk away , but i know this crush aint gonna away

2009-06-06T21:02:00.024+08:00

IMAGE HEAVY

It has been quite a hectic week ! Packed with many things , from school , to some meet ups :) Enjoyed some really awesome times ! Sunday , swimming in the morning as usual . After swimming , headed over to fetch Grandpa and went to ECP :) Lunch-ed together ! Food was off the hook :) Yummy to the max . The oat prawns tasted really good :) Love it ! And for the first time in 17years , I took chilli . No kidding ! Hahaha , I had chilli crab :) Niceee ! I took the meat out for myself , didn't need help . First time okay ! LOL . Had a really hard laugh after the full lunch . I couldn't stop laughing for quite awhile , and my stomach hurt till I could hardly walk ! After all that , Clavin and I cycled at least 6km :) Fun timeeee . Glad Grandpa tagged along :)

Monday , lecture as usual but Jolene was absent ): Met Joey and Eileen Tan for lunch after lecture then went back to school for project meeting . After meeting , we cabbed to kr to get our certs , like finally :) Waited for Jolene Tay to finish GB , before gonna for dinner together ! I really miss sec school days , all that lesson times , bitching etc ! Poly's just soooo different . Had tutorials as per normal on Wednesday . Volleyball was quite alright :) Learnt spike etc . Played awhile more after lesson ended , then went over to Jolene's place before going home :)

ITA presentation on Thursday ! It went quite smoothly and kudos to Eileen for the powerpoint presentation :) And for our first presentation , we all got an A ! Thanks :D My first A in poly . Woohoo ~ Headed over to Hilton after tutorial cause I didn't have to go for STB ! Mummy went to see meeting rooms while the rest of us were there to accompany her . Then we went for lunch together :) Had J class after lunch ! Zoe and Chiew Yan came :) More company this time . Last class of Basic 1 ! Gotta work harder for Basic 2 man ! Had awesome convo till 12am plus :) I felt so much better , thanks !

Child dev tutorial on Friday went quite okay :) Had my long waited Subway cookie while waiting for Cheryl . Headed over to Lot1 , but they didn't have a good time for the movie ! So we crashed Cotton On to shop instead :) Bought 5items , hahaha ! At a really good price :) After shopping , we went to JurongPoint to get movie tickets to Hannah Montanna before going for late lunch ! During lunch , Cheryl gave me a present :) Aww man , I was really surprised and felt bad at the same time ! Cause I didn't get her anything ): Movie was awesome :D The guy in the show was , HOT except for his accent ! Hahaha . Camwhore-d after movie before heading home :)

Awesome time with Cheryl ♥ Thanks for being such a wonderful girlfriend :D Yeap , like you said , although we hardly meet each other but we know that we are always there for one another no matter what :) Thanks for everything , you're a really sweet and awesome friend . LOVE YOU :D

Watched Monsters Vs. Aliens just now ! Omgee , the show was like soo over-rated . But Clavin wanted to watch it , and insisted that I tag along , so all of us went ! I didn't study the entire day , damn ): I've a quiz on Monday & Jap homework to complete . Oh well , tmr's mugging day !
come on , give me back that affinity ! pleaseeeeee ):

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tag replies ;

to Raihanah : Aww , thanks my dear :) I'll try not to be too depressed ! Yes , we should crash Starbucks soon . Hope to see you soon :) Loves !

to Syafiqah : Thanks :) Im feeling much better now ! Okay , I'll go and have a look :)

to Xinyan : Yeap , no problem :)

to Cher : Thanks girlfriend :) Hahaha , I know what you mean about the SAME taste ! Yes , it was really fun :) Happy 2years too ! Love you , always :)

to Xiaoting : HELLO :) Yes , it rocks . Hahaha !

things i cant change

2009-06-03T22:31:00.002+08:00

I have been feeling depressed lately ):

many reasons .

But I guess it has all been covered up

by some smile or laughter you seen or heard .

Maybe I wasn't unique enough to leave

an impression .

But for me ,

you did .

In a sea of people ,

you left me

the deepest impression .

If it was just a dream ,

I wish i never wake up again .

I laugh at myself for being so pathetic ,

naive ..

Sometimes I just hate myself , alot .

What has become of me ,

once again .

I lost myself .

I wanna my tears ,

perhaps it's the best company .

update soon .

busy with school .

replies ;

to Raihanah : Maybe we shall crash Starbucks tgt some time soon :)

Yeap , see you around !

to Cher : thankyou :) Same , can't wait to see you too !

Im sure you did your best , leave th rest to God :) Loves .

Lord ,

grant me

the serenity to accept things I cant change ,

the courage to change things I can

and

the wisdom to know the difference .

accept things I can't change

2009-05-30T15:29:00.010+08:00

Yesterday's photos :D

Monday's lunchMonday's project meet up

22May Friday , in lieu of Elaine's birthday

Oh , hello world ! I haven't blogged since Monday . Pardon me :)

Busy with E-learning stuff and all . Aye , school's really hectic , don't you agree ?

I'm always on the verge of giving up ):

Anyway , I went back for PPCM make up on Monday morning . Lesson was quite enjoyable , we played one round of pass the message ! It was damn hilarious :) After class , along with class clique and a few others , we lunch-ed tgt ! Awesome time :) Had tons of laugh about milo dinosaur etc . Thanks to Adelina and Saunders ! We separated after lunch to get along with our projects . Had some fun camwhor-ing , Adelle and Adelina poking around and a weird librarian ! Woohoo ~ Went back when Dad came to fetch . Project kills brain cells /:

Next day's attachment was another enjoyable session , this time with the K2s :) At first , the kids were rather cold towards us . But all it took was a little warm up :) I managed to click with a few of them . And a girl kept clicking with me :) There was also a pair of twins , cool ! Looking forward to attachments :) Went to fetch Clavin after attachment tgt with Dad , and lunch-ed at Din Tai Fung . Then came home to do my assignments !

Back to school on Wednesday morning to do project . Had hot dog for breakfast at library cafe :) Then headed to the room we booked to do our project . Lunch-ed at canteen 2 , the jap food was quite niceee :) But ate it in a rush . Had volleyball right after lunch . At the first drill , I totally wanted to vomit ): That teaches me not to eat right before exercising ! Damn . But I got better :) Split into groups to play match . Roast ourselves under the hot sun ! It was freaking hot . Was feeling rather siannn ): Practiced serving , totally can't make it . Maybe due to my mood ! Stayed in school for awhile to cool down with Jolene before heading home :)

J class on Thursday ! Yay , my friend came :) Haven't seen her in awhile . Sat on a cranky chair , shittt . Lesson was still managable , can't say so for the upcoming lessons though ! Went to find Mummy after class , bought dinner then cabbed back :)

Met up with Amanda and Jolene yesterday :) Crashed Yoshinoya for lunch , yummy ! Bought my laptop cover , like finally :) We went around looking for a place to sit so that Jolene and I could do our assignments . But to no avail . We decided to just settle at Macs , but couldn't find the damn socket ! My batt died on me , so we headed over to Marina Square :)

It was such a relief when we found a seat that had a socket beside it at Starbucks :) Shared a drink and salad with Jolene as we continued with our Access work while Amanda did Chem chanting :) Hahaha . MS access was really an ass ! Got onto our nerves , damn complicated ):

But managed to get some stuff done , with a little help from Waiwan over the phone :) Thanks , my dear ! We gave up after awhile , leaving some parts undone . Went walking around for a short while before deciding dinner :) We dined at Waraku ! Quite affordable :) And the food's not bad . The menu , to begin with , make the food look so tempting okay ! You should try :)

I'll post up the photos of our food soon . Chats and photos over dinner :) Shortly after , we headed back !

Super duper awesome day out :D I miss holiday-ing ! But in one day , my one week's pocket money was gone ): Oops .

Anyway , thanks for the day girls ♥ I really enjoyed myself as always !

So that's about everything :) Wordy post . Hohoho ! I managed to finish up all of my E-learning assignments in time . I randomly just submitted my ITA access , after such a struggle , I gave up trying :P I can't get a good grade anyway ! Relieved that E-learning is done with :) But back to school soon , then holiday soon . That shall be my motivation :)

Shall get back to my Jap homework , seven pages of out eight to complete ! Madness ):

Imy , special candy ):

I've been having such terrible days this week . im crushed

Oh yeah , before I forget ! Ernest told me to post this up ,

Ernest says : I'm the inedible eyecandy !

LOL ! You may not understand , see my MSN personal msg if you can then you'll get it :) Hahaha

tag replies ;

to Cher : Hahaha I will :) You too , have fun in school !

Eh , school's fun ONLY to a certain extent luh . Hahaha , loves :)

to Amanda : Hello lovely , thanks :) I will try to cheer up .

Love you to the max :)

to Shiying : Updated :D

just not in the right mood

2009-05-25T22:42:00.010+08:00

Last Thursday's camwhore photos with Jolene in the library while waiting for Amanda :)

Many photos to upload !

Will publish them soon :)

Suddenly , Im just not feeling right .

Inside , Im feeling so down .

Sometimes , I think that everything now is just temporary .

Everything is gonna start changing soon .

For the worst ):

Question is ,

have my laughters and smiles nowadays been real ?

Once again ,

I don't feel myself .

I contain everything within .

Shitttt endless assignments !

Please stop the hands of the clock .

American's Next Top Model now :)

im a tv addict , hahaha

tag replies ;

to Raihanah : Samesame ! Everyone has a sad life ,

spend half our lives studying like maddddd . Ugh ):

Yeap , you should go catch it :) Niceee

to Syafiqah : Ohokay :) I will relink you soon !

Yeap see you on Wednesday :) Oh yeah .

But I think we'll be splitting into our teams this Wednesday !

to Brenda : Yeap , it's nicee :) Funny too .

See you tmr morning :) Takecare too .

never knew until i met you

2009-05-24T22:22:00.002+08:00

Shitttt . I realised I have so muchhhh to do ):

1. E-learning assignments for ALL modules

2. Jap homework !

3. Go for PPCM tmr

4. J class on Thursday

5. Attachment , and FP booklet due Tuesday

6. School on wednesday

On a slightly lighter note , I managed to finish one of my assignments :D My ITA excel , I'm so happy ! I felt it to be such a relief , but the worst part would be doing Access . That I guess would be madness ): Trying to complete my FP booklet now , siannn . But I'm side tracking as usual , hahaha . As you can see .
I'm thinking about leaving my FP half done and sleep now , cause I've to wake up at 6 tmr . Or should I complete it now , so I have time to do other assignments tmr ?

Went for swimming this morning :) Like finally . I really needed exercise . I haven't been losing weight ): Sadness , seriously ! Maybe due to the fact that I eat consistently unlike in sec school and I've been laughing way alot now . I'm damn mad nowadays , laughing like nobody's business :P Don't ask me why , I also have no idea . And it only happened when school started , lol . I should laugh and eat less , so as to maintain my weight and maybe lose it , no ? :)

Anyway , stupid backstroke drill kill me ): I wanted to vomit so badly , after the fourth lap . But I got better after a short rest :) Dread backstroke , seriously . And the Sun wasn't helping , it was quite glaring . But managed to get a little tanned :) And one of the guys is my junior , hahaha . Studying in kr , lol . Some unexpected coincidence ! Lunch-ed at Sakae :) Shittt , I hate myself for eating . Went to catch a movie , Night at the museum 2 after lunch :) Awesome show , must catch it ! Shopped a lil before heading home :) I bought new jeans for 19bucks ! Good deal , for new future jeans . Hahaha . Oh ! And my new tigger :) Welcome to my bed full of toys ! Hahaha . I've a weakness for such adorable soft toys :)

Okay , shall get back to my FP then can sleep ! Stupid PPCM ): Rahhh .
Im hoping to see you this week , despite e-learning :) Im positive !

tag replies ;

to Cher : Yeap , you should catch the show soon kkays :) Hahaha

Okayy , but you can always text me for no apparent reasons :)

I welcome your texts ! I love you tooo :D

to Shiying : No problem :) Loves !

pour Your Spirit out on me

2009-05-23T20:39:00.001+08:00

Pour Your Spirit out by Shannon Wexelberg

Lord, I seek You

Help me find You

How I need Your touch

Find my dry and broken places

Thirsty for Your love

Lord, forgive me

If I’ve wandered

Far away from You

You are all I’ve ever needed

Come and make me new

Pour Your Spirit out on me

Fall just like the rain

Saturate my thirsty soul

Come and fall afresh on me

Fill my cup again

Heal my heart and make me whole

I need You now

Pour Your Spirit out

Awesome song :)

xoxo

You're all I ever needed, come and make me new

2009-05-23T19:31:00.002+08:00

I ♥ the weekends , don't you ? :D

On Thursday , studied for awhile after Jolene and Amanda came . We then headed over to JurongPoint to have dinner together :) Din Tai Fung , my new love ! Yummy . Enjoyable time with you two , always :) Yesterday was quite okay . ITA was fruitful :) Learnt Access , what a complication ! Zomg . Manymany details . Hopefully I'll be able to complete the assignment on it ! Wish me luck , hahaha . Anyway , I think the lecturer hates us . Or that was what I heard . Somehow it doesn't come as a surprise ! Oh well . I shall be nice and good , listening in class :) I was a good girl yesterday during ITA okay ! I totally didn't get distracted , I paid attention .

Went slightly high during Child Dev tutorial with Adelina :) That mad girl ! She changed seat then sat beside me . She said lecturer buy new ovens , and the room was very cold . So we can bake our hands in the ovens . Say melt the cheese on her fingers , then become cheese fries ! Lame right ? Hahaha . You should have seen Adelle's reaction ! Watched video , do practice for recording and group work :) Had a birthday surprise for Elaine . Credits to Saunders , he's always running to buy the cake . Hahaha !
Lunch-ed with Adelina , Waiwan and Eileen at SIM :) First time there . Ate spagehtti with cutlet , not bad . But the portion of spagehtti was like , pathetic -.-

Went back to school after lunch , accompanied Eileen to helpdesk then crashed library to wait for Jolene and complete my newsletter ! Irritating guy at the library , damn vulgar . And he was speaking on top of his voice , I bet all the people sitting in the rows could hear him ! Unbearable /: Managed to do my newsletter though :) Had dinner with Jolene at MosBurger , then headed over to the library to do newsletter again ! Finally completed the newsletter at home :) What a relief ! I managed to finish up , so last minute . Damn unlike me ~
Adelle said it was good :) Thanks ! I think it could have been better .
So relieved the week is over :) Days seemed to fly pass fast this week .

Anyway , I didn't hand in the form for YEP in the end . First , I didn't bring the stupid photo to paste on the form , I don't know the expiry date for my passport . And I'm not sure if I would be able to commit . Siann , I kind of wanted to go ): But just not sure if I'm up to it ! Oh well .

Looking forward to next week :) E-learning week ! No early wake ups :) Damn elated . But there're still assignments to be done , PPCM make up tutorial , attachment , project meet up , S&W and J class ! Should be going for a lil shopping trip with Jolene and Amanda :) Yay !
Let me enjoy the weekend first :D
In my distress, I called upon the Lord - Psalm 18:6
Lord , I seek you . Help me find you .

22May ;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIMIAN :D

23May;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIYING :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIXIAN :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE :D

tag replies ;

to Jolene : Hahaha , self praise ! Yes ! Shopping , Im soooo looking forward :D

Loveeeee to the max :)

to Cher : Girlfriend ! No problem :) Cheer up kkays , don't be sad already !

I love you tooooo :)

getting addictive

2009-05-21T14:02:00.008+08:00

セリーヌはSPECIAL CANDYがすきです :D

I seriously wanna sleep now . Damn tired , zzzz ! Alone in the library , waiting for Jolene to end tutorial and Amanda's coming over to study later :) Should I do that stupid newsletter project ? Hahaha . It's due tomorrow , but then like haven't even finished . Very hopeless ! Lol . Can't be helped , I've no idea how to research and produce the newsletter . Lucky thing it's not to be done individually :) I still have Adelle to help me , hahaha .

I just realised I've been so busy , not been able to blog as frequently as before . Projects , assignments . One after another , it's really siann to the max ! Monday had lecture , then went to project at our space :) Amanda came over to meet us . Lunch-ed at Makan Place , then headed over to the library to study . I worked on the stupid newsletter which seriously got onto my nerves . I kept sidetracking anyway :P I couldn't take it . Hahaha , I was on facebook and msn-ing . But I managed to get some relevant information (:
Monday was an awesome day , maybe because I saw you . Only less than 10 steps away :D

Tuesday's attachment was the best :D Hahaha . I really enjoyed my time with the K1s . I found Kai Le super cuteeee :) And Winnie is really nice and funny . During structured time , they were still warming up with us . Like the Nursery 2 , they were also fascinated my pencil . Hahaha . They thought that it was a pen . And everyone at that table wanted to try writing then erasing what they wrote away ! Hahaha . They also went to the playground :) One big mess . Most of them kept running all over the playground . Tiring to look after all of them !

There was an indian girl that kept sticking to me while she drank her water . Hahaha . Winnie chose to sit beside me and started asking me many questions . Somemore she talked in Chinese , asked me what's my chinese name etc . Damn cuteee :) I think children are so adorable , they always monkey see monkey do . One person starts talking then everyone will follow , and talk about the SAME topic plus it's all at one go ! Zomg , hahaha . We left before they finished lunch . Waited for Dad to come , while Brenda went back . I stood outside the class to wait , and they came to the window to talk to me and wave goodbye until the teacher called them :)
Had Macs for lunch with Dad , went to pick Jolene up then came back to school for Wricom . Group work with Syafiqah , Aisha and Chew Hui , fruitful :) We managed to complete the task given in time before class ended . Went home after staying back for awhile discussing project !

Wednesday's PPCM was quite okay , at least I didn't fall asleep . We shared about our attachment experiences :) Waiwan's story was the most interesting , seriously . Hahaha , but it's matured contents . We were late for FP cause Ms Lucy let us off late as the exercise she gave dragged . FP was as usual , enjoyable :) I like the lecturer ! Handed in essay , please let me at least have a passing grade :) I can't flunk . Rahhh .
Had lunch in the library , hahaha . Suppose to do Child dev research , but ended up , we all just chit chat :) I guess all of us are just tired from the endless project rountine . Had fun time talking with you girls :) Then went to meet Jolene before gonna for Volleyball .

YAY ! Im loving volleyball , more and more :D Still trying to the serving right . Couldn't get it right yesterday , siannn to the max , seriously !! Played matches again though :) Enjoyable , though the first two matches lost and had to do 10 push ups . My hands seriously damn itchy , I wanna play volleyball ): Hahaha . Jolene was so niceee , she waited with me for Dad to come then she went off . THANKS :D

Just now , ITA was quite _______ ( I can't find a word to say ) Hahaha . But I was a good girl to follow whatever she told us to do . Im self praising :) Aye , overall I think the lecturer is quite okay just that she's sometimes naggy and long winded . And constantly going out of point !
STB was awesome , it hasn't failed to be :D Record a children's story etc . When STB ended , I heard Ms Chong say Kris won :D I was damn hyper after that . Hahaha , and I made quite alot of noise , I'm sure :) But who cares , I can't believe Adam actually didn't win . I'm so happy ! I thought Adam would win , but I don't wanna him to win . I think Kris is sooooo muchhh better :D Im sure there're many Adam supporter , thus I expected him to win like 90percent !

Okay , over with the excitement about that :) Hahaha . I still wanted to watch the results tonight , lol . I can sleep early tonight then if I don't have to chiong for that stupid newsletter ! Rahh . E-learning week , next week :) No wake ups at 6am . I'm so over the moon about that fact :D Who isn't ? Hahaha . But the assignments don't disappear , dumbdumb . I've been procrastinating alot recently , and I shouldn't be ):
Im starting to enjoy school , only the part of being with my clasmates , Jolene and my favourite module , S&W :D
Im always happy to see you ! I felt the smile to be so real :)

Tag replies ;

to Shiying : Yeap , it was me . I forgot to put my name , sorry !

I know who your sister and brother are (: Hahaha

to Raihanah : Hahaha yeap , I know . I just can't stay with the same blogskin for longgg .

I don't mind , helping you change :) Haha . It's alright , I don't mind the spamming

too :) Yes , I wanna camwhore with you soon . And I've been seeing you around :)

Happy ! Hahaha .

to Candice : Relink-ed :) It's alright !

to Syafiqah : Hahaha yeap , heart pain to throw away such a nice pair

of shoes ! Linked :)

nobody but you

2009-05-16T16:01:00.008+08:00

Let me sidetrack a little :P

I have been working on my 500essay for almost two hours , damn pathetic ?! I finally finished up , but I have no idea how to end off the essay and it has already overshot the word limit ! What's this ): I thought I have nothing to write , but it always ends up I write too muchhhh . How to end the essay ? :0 I'm at such a loss . Siannn .

Endless of things to complete . After my FP essay , I still have to work on ITA newsletter assignment , FP booklet , Child dev research etc . Projects after projects , assignments one after another . Haven't even completed that project , there's another one thrown at us . This is ONLY the fourth week /: Deadlines all over the calender !

* SCREAMS .

Went to school in the morning for project meet up , PPCM was cancelled so no tutorials for the day :D Happy ! Met Jolene before heading over for volleyball in the early afternoon (: I'm starting to enjoy volleyball more , I guess . Hahaha . We had a chance to play a game , same team with Jolene with four other guys :D Something embarrasing happened . Siann to the max ! I hit the ball into one of the guys' face , accidentally ! It was really an accident ): I felt super paisei after that . But overall , the game was enjoyable (: Time passed really fast , though . And Thank God , after volleyball , my arms didn't hurt like last week :D

Happy birthday Eileen (:

Thursday's ITA was , as usual . I was really tired cause I stayed up to watch American Idol :P Heh . We had a surprise for our class rep , Eileen as it was her birthday . We had Ms Chong's help , Saunders' suggestion to make it a successful one (: I think Eileen was really touched and surprised . STB was fun :D It's always filled with laughter . Nearing the end of the lesson , we had a talk about an overseas trip to Vietnam . Shitt , frankly I'm interested to go for the trip . I'm sure it will be fun and enriching :D But the duration of 14days , quite longggg . Though , there's still an interview we have to go through , only 25-30 people can make it /: What are the odds ? I haven't decided whether to hand in the consent form yet . Hmmmm

Should I ? (:

Rushed over to J class after tutorial . Skipped lunch ): There was no time to have lunch , I ended tutorial at one and J class is at two ! Poor me , hahaha . Jap is getting challenging as the lessons pass . Hope I can still cope as I move on (: I'm gonna to Basic2 in three more lessons , how time flies ! Zomg . After class , I went to get bread to fill my empty stomach since breakfast before going to find Mummy . I didn't eat anything on that day since 7plus after breakfast , for almost 12 hours /: LOL

Finally learnt some things in ITA on Friday :D Hahaha . We were taught Excel , first time I sort of enjoyed ITA . First , the lecturer asked us to download the relevant stuff for the lesson . But some of them had trouble downloading , or took quite long . This was how it went :

Lecturer : Okay I'm gonna start now

Some of us : Eh teacher , havent download yet

Lecturer : Why so slow ? Ask your friends to send them through msn to you .

Me : Teacher , I thought you say can't chitchat during lesson .

Hahaha , contradicting sia ! Previous lessons told us can't chit chat , then yesterday asked us to send things through msn . Okay , I was also just being naughty to say that :P Actually , the lecturer is nice , just that she isn't engaging ! If not , ITA would be quite alright (: Child dev tutorial , we had group work for practice of recording . After tutorial , had lunch sitting with Jolene and her classmates . Jolene went for class at one plus , while I went to the IT helpdesk . Something funny happened there too (:

A guy who is the friend of the guy who was sitting beside me introduced himself to me in Jap . He stood on my right side , saw that I was writing my Jap notes so :

guy : わたしはMarcusです

later , his friend asked him :

another guy : Eh , you know that girl ah ?

Marcus : I don't know . She's your friend ah ?

another guy : No , I don't know her also . Then why you talk to her ?

Marcus : I learn Jap before then just anyhow say . ( then started randomly saying Jap words that he knew )

I think both of them are just damn random , and self entertaining . HAHAHA ! Actually , the room was very quiet , but the two of them just started talking so loudly that everyone could hear them . LOL ! The random thing was , that Marcus guy couldn't connect to the internet cause he had too many NPNet in his lappy -.- So he had to one by one delete away , he had like more than 60 plus NPNet saved . Went to the library to do my work after I was done at the helpdesk :D

I should start on my other assignments , if not I won't have enough time ): Shittt . 4 more weeks to term break (: So looking forward to SHOPPING but there's still assignments ( confirm luh ) . Whatever , beats not having a break at all :D

tag replies ;

to Brenda : Hello :D Yeap , see you in school !

to Shiying : Eh , your term break is like earlier than mine ):

Yeap I just know you've two brothers , when I saw the photo of the younger one (:

Your other brother used to be in kr too right ? Hahaha . It's alright about

the spam (:

to Cus : Hahaha , the second quiz is the true test ! The first quiz is easy , the

answers are quite obvious :P Cheryl also got 100percent leh , hahaha

Yeap , really don't needa put (: Unless you wanna give me your blog url luh !

to Cheryl : No problem (: I haven't replied you yet , sorry . I'll reply later !

Yeap , I will try as much as possible to enjoy school . You too (:

Who loves cockroaches ? :s Hahaha

love affinity

2009-05-12T16:50:00.003+08:00

In the library now !
No idea why can't log into facebook , damn siannnn . So I've decided to blog instead . I tried to log into fb like five times during Wricom just now , I even restarted my com -.- I gave up trying , but now even library also cant ):

Got the opportunity to wake up slightly later on Monday (: Thanks to Clavin , cause he had the day off in lieu of Vesak Day ! Met up with Jolene before heading over for Child Dev lecture . Really sleepy during lecture as usual , and I have no idea what was wrong with my handwriting ): Damn ugly , but I'm gonna rewrite it anyway so it doesn't really matter ! Oh yeah , we had a funny incident at the start of lecture . A cockroach incident ! Randomly , girls started screaming . Thankfully , we had guys in the LT (: If not , most of us would be just screaming and running away from it . One guy managed to catch and dispose of it ! With all the sound effects and everything , it would be more funny (: Jolene was like damn calm , just sitting there ! Impressed (: Hahaha

Went to meet up for project after lecture (: Amanda came over to school to study with us ! Went to bring her in , then met up with Jolene . Walked to Makan Place for lunch . Some irritating people sat at the table just talking when they already finished their food . They know we are waiting for seats , then like purposely sit there and continue talking !! Worst still , don't think they are students of np luh . Managed to get a seat in the end (: After lunch , we came to the library to study . Okay , I was playing and chatting through out . Hahaha ! Jolene left first , while Amanda and I stayed for awhile before she went to meet her friend and I went back (:
It was a good day , hahaha . Basically , due to the fact that I was very ecstatic :D And damn hyper ! The reason is quite obvious :D Muahaha .

Attachment this morning . I really wished I could sleep in . Reached the place just in time , then went in and got started . We overlooked the Nursery two today (: Fun kids ! Adorable , and more vocal than the N1s . They started waving to us , saying hello and even giving us High-fives (: I particulary like this boy named Eugene , aww . He told me that his mother will buy him a Spiderman cake tmr for his birthday . And when I happened to look through the birthday chart , I saw that his birthday is in October . Hahaha ! And he left me a deep impression (:
He got attracted to my orange pencil , so I gave him my notebook to draw on . He started writing numbers . When he felt that his handwriting isn't nice or the numbers are too big , he'll rewrite it . But he kept writing on a new page , so now a few pages of my notebook has his scribers !

Another boy started talking to me about snakes at his house or something , then the others around also started saying they saw snakes etc . And the worst is , when they all start talking to me at the same time . I have no idea who to listen to ! A fresh experience , hahaha . This week , we also got to see the outdoor play (: I wasn't so tired after today's attachment , maybe cause we weren't required to help so much . Lunch-ed with Brenda at library's cafe (: Then headed over for Wricom . Had a library talk , which made me wanna sleep cause the lights were switched off and the aircon was at a good temperature (:

Yay ! Tmr no morning classes , only come to school for S&W which is at three (: Awesome right ? But I need come for project meet up . I still get to sleep alittle longer , better than nothing (:
Im a happy girl today :D Hahaha .
But Im having mixed feelings ):
twice in less than 30minutes , an awesome affinity :D

/edited , 8.47pm
Yay ! I can finally log into fb (: Hahaha . Anyway , I more or less sort out my feelings already ! Though I'm still wondering if it's affinity or just coincidence .. There're like so many explanations but I kept thinking about the posiblities that upsets me ): dumbdumb ! But at the end of everything , I'm still happy I got to see you whether it's affinity or concidence :D

tag replies ;

to Shiying : I see , he looks like your other brother (:

Yeap , I think most people are looking forward to the hols too . HAHAHA

to Cher : JIAYOU :D I'm sure you can do it ! Can ask me ,

I love maths & sciences leh ): HAHAHA . Yeap , recieved your reply (:

Love you , meet up soon :D

to Cus : Don't needa put your email (: Still dare say very long didn't come !

LOL . Yeap I just saw . Why you walau for ? Hahaha . You thought you'll

get 100percent again ? :o Was it too difficult ? Hahaha

to Riaa : Hahaha , orion ! You sure miss sec school . It's my PE tee (:

Nice colour right ? :D

inner lost

2009-05-10T15:35:00.004+08:00

P.S : overdue photos (:

Another school week's starting tmr ): I don't wanna wake up early ! Siannn .

I woke up very late yesterday , almost 12pm :P Hahaha . Stayed up to rush through my Jap homework and diary writing (: Mugged in the afternoon before heading over to Grandma's house to continue doing some work then had dinner together ! Before dinner , Grandma , Grandpa and I were watching a Taiwan variety show together :D The people were suppose to guess who the showbiz artist was . If they gave the wrong answer , cream would be smashed at their faces . Hiliarious ! First time in seventeen years , did I watch a show with my grandparents and laughed together (: It was a good feeling !

Dinner was quite enjoyable , but the heat was such a killer . Went back quite early so that I could catch the last episode of ToGETher (: The ending was , not bad . Hahaha

I'm suppose to be study now , or something . I have no idea what I'm suppose to be doing ):

Download notes off Mel . And completing my part of the projects . I'm feeling so lost inside again . Frustrated at myself ): I decided to give J class a miss today , go for make-up on Thursday instead . I didn't wanna wake up for it , and I haven't completed the listening part till just now !

On Saturday , I really had the urge of just giving up Jap . I felt that it was such a struggle . But I knew I couldn't give up now , can I ? After all that I have put in , it would be such a waste ! Yet , it's still a very long way to the end . I'm losing hope , I'm on the verge of giving up even on something that I love and desire for . I need a cert for Jap to be able to migrate to Japan ! D:

I have no idea how long I can withstand .

SC , I wish I could talk to you now ):

tag replies ;

to Cher : I miss you too , girlfriend ! I'll text you tmr , so look out (:

Yes , I'm quite caught up with school now . Killing me ):

Thanks , I'll try to cheer up . Love you too !

to Jolene : Hahahah yeah , I saw him :D :D

Next time next time ! Must walk pass him then counted :P

to Xintian : LOL ! Bending of the back , never bend the knees leh ):

Hahahah

rush of excitement !

2009-05-08T16:14:00.013+08:00

Photos from Wednesday's class lunch & one from class breakfast , credits to Eileen :D
P.S: looking damnnnn unglam ):

Breakfast at Macs as usual . I'm seriously getting sick of Macs already ): Hahaha . But I always enjoy breakfast with Mummy and Dad very muchhhh :D Full of laughs , it's definitely one of my happiest point of the day ! ♥
It started raining very heavy , all of a sudden . Resulting us having to take the longer route to class by the underpass . Adelle's sandals gave way /: She had a hard time dragging her feet to class . But there was Adelina to the rescue :D She came up with the idea of using a rubber band to tie , and it works (: At least Adelle could walk much better .

ITA ! We finally did our presentation . We were the second group to present . But when it was our turn , we kind of took our own sweet time . So lecturer called out Eileen's name , but Eileen didn't response to her , hahah . I have no idea why she called me also , since my index number was the last among the five of us ! And she had to repeat my name so many times and quite loudly , then I was like " what ?! " x: I know , it's kind of rude . But she's like sooooo impatient !
My classmates were like telling me to cool down , that I sounded very fierce . Hahaha . Looks like I have yet to change :P
Presentation was quite successful ! Had many laughs after the presentations (: One of it was , she said there wasn't much time left . So she pointed to her watch , but the face of the watch was facing inwards . She had to lift her hand up and turn it to show us . I started laughing . Then Adelle was like , " Advertising for the Rexona deodorant . " Hahaha . Hilarious :x
I think I'm damn mean to her , hahaha . Sorry luh , I'll try to be nicer somehow (:

Lecturer released us late , so we turned up at Child Dev tutorial rather late . But Ms Agnes gave us a ten minute toilet break , so nice of her (: Hahaha . Did a bit of revision for Monday's lecture , then followed by group work . And the room was freezing , we could practically hear the air coming out from the aircon above us ! After tutorial , went to meet Jolene for lunch at Makan Place (: Then walked over to KAP to find Dad and home sweet home !

Yay , the weekends :D No early mornings ! Zomg . I just remember I haven't done my J homework . I haven't even started on the worksheet . So dead/: That's much to be done during the weekend , and on top of that , Mothers' Day is on Sunday . I'm so unprepared ! I hate myself , I lost myself ):
I saw you , like finally :D
But I've no idea what's wrong with my mood .

tag replies ;

to Jolene : thanks sweetie :D Yeah , I know you'll always be there for me .

Love you to the max (:

to Shiying : Alot of stuff happened ): But I'm feeling slightly better already .

Thanks :D You can talk to me anytime too !

feelings on the surface

2009-05-07T17:01:00.003+08:00

I'm so happy that another week is coming to an end , it's THURSDAY :D
Looking forward to the holidays , which is still quite long away . Siannnn !

I was just in time for attachment on Tuesday . Thankfully , Dad fetched me there if not , I'll confirm be lost or something :P Observed the Nursery1 class tgt with Brenda and Pebbles . Many things happened , not gonna mention everything . One of the little boy is so adorable (: When I asked him what's his name , his reply was " I don't know . I don't have a name . "
They're only three years old , hahaha . Still young ! We helped out by assisting them to the toilet , during puzzle time and lunch . Back ache /: LOL . The sinks in the toilet was low , had to bend slightly so that we can help the kids with the hand washing .

Two of the children , Chloe and YongHan were such poor things ! They were sort of unwell so they had to wear a mask over their tiny faces . Required to also sit away from the rest of the class . Like damn isolated can ?! Make them feel so left out ): Nicholas and another boy kept talking to me , but half the time I couldn't make out what they were saying . Oops . And randomly at one point , one of the boy came to hug me :D So cuteeee ! Hahaha .
Lunch was tempting , smelled so nice . But we couldn't eat ):

After attachment ended , bus-ed back to school with Brenda (: Lunch-ed at Makan Place , then Jolene and Gabriele came along after their attachment . Was sleepy during Wricom /: So was Brenda and some others . Had some group work , msn chats along the way . After class , met Jolene and went to the library for a special purpose of hers . Trio convo with Amanda (: And talked to Shiying plus play word challenge . New high score :D

Wednesday's PPCM was quite draggy . Maybe due to the temperature in the room & I didn't bring my jacket . Adelina and I kept falling asleep , hahaha . Lecturer talking about classroom management etc . Theory , super dry ! FP on the other hand , was much enjoyable (: Filled with many laughs . FP assignments are gonna be due soon , the 500word essay . Zomg !
Class lunch at KAP (: Er ren shi jie with Waiwan , cause there wasn't enough seats for all of us to sit tgt . Some class photos taken , getting them tmr during ITA (: After lunch , we went to the library tgt . Shortly after , we then left for S&W . Met Jolene and Yanyi :D

Volleyball was , fun (: But the after effect sucks . We did practices of hitting the ball over the tall net with our partners followed by playing two on two . Arms super sore during the practices /: And I almost sprain my ankle , totally felt it . Scary ! Although , I got myself quite abit of injuries , I did enjoy playing volleyball :D Dad came to fetch me then went to Mummy's office . After picking Mummy up , we went to send Dad's car to re-service it . My right arm started to have red spots ): And totally hurts , when I just touch without strength ! I wonder how am I gonna play next Wednesday :s Rahhh ! Pizza Hut for dinner (:
My mood was super lousy ); Tears were my company to sleep .

ITA this morning , siannnn to the max as usual . Played minesweeper on msn with Waiwan , hahaha . I lost ): But I won one round of UNO ! Yay (: Lecturer suddenly said , " you all don't think I don't know that all of you are engrossed with your msn and all that . I have been a teacher for a long time , I know . " Then she started asking to do activity so that we can't chat and play games . Hahaha . Had a few good laughs during ITA with her pronoucation :x She was damn impatient with us when we didn't know how to do the activity properly ! Whatever .
Some of us are IT idoits , unlike her right -.-
She dragged her lesson longer when we were suppose to leave for STB . Then when she released us , she practically chased us out ! As if I wanted to stay for more ITA talking :x

STB , was awesome . Full of laughters :D I love our lecturer ! Hahaha . She told us about her ex-teacher , that said something she never forgot . Girls cannot sleep in public . I mean , what's wrong with that ? Hahaha . I used to sleep in class in sec sch , in the bus and train . Most people do that what -.- LOL . Recording , practice for pitch etc , was enjoyable and accompanied by endless laughters (:
Went for lunch with Jolene and some of her classmates before heading back !
Managed to complete my ITA homework , before blogging . I have no idea if I did it right . So confusing /: I hate ITA ! But I don't wanna fail the module . Ugh !
Now , have to get back to my Child Dev library search assignment . Im striving to be a good girl ! Hahaha .

It's the tenth day already since I saw you ):
I feel that I've lost myself . I don't seem to be who am I .
So emotionally weak . I can't take it , I really wanna give up .
The thought of giving up keeps coming to me .
Yesterday , I felt what was it like to breakdown again .
I felt really lousy that tears kept welling up in my eyes .
But I had to fight back the tears and kept it till dark when I was alone .
Im faltering somehow , on the inside ):

tag replies ;

to Cher : No luh , you're not . Though I feel similarly also , sometimes . But cheer up kays :D

I miss talking to you too , I can text you soon (: It beats not studying , hahaha .

All the best for mye :D

to Shiying : Excatly , everyone's like rushing to get . Kiasu sia :x

Have faith , Im sure you can do it :D Yeah , nice talking to you on msn !

to Pw : Really alright ? :o Slowly adapting to poly , not really enjoying yet .

Hahaha . Sad to say ! Oh , cool . We're learning similar stuffff . (:

to Germaine : Sure luh , bluff you no money to take ! LOLLOL

to Raihanah : Yeah definitely luh :D Hahaha . Im abit mad , but

it has been ten days ):

to Jolene Tay : I miss you too . We should really meet soon :D

draining energy

2009-05-04T14:20:00.003+08:00

Life with children , all about them !

Currently in school , basement of convention center (: Gonna to meet Amanda later !

Mondays are short days , awesome . Two hours of lecture and that's all :D

It was pouring like mad this morning while gonna for breakfast . Had many good laughs , good morning (: I think I was such a disturbance to the girl sitting on the next table studying , while I kept on laughing . Had chocolate cake for breakfast , not bad !

Met Jolene and Michelle then headed over to LT . Almost slept during lecture , but that's rather impossible . I don't know if it was cause the lecturer wasn't entertaining or maybe because I had not enough sleep . Finally , lecture ended but I was only about half aware what was thought /:

Went over to Makan Place with Waiwan , Adelle , Adelina , Eileen and Xinyan (: Had cheese prata , yummy . I have been eating prata and the curry too . Just weird , I don't even take chilli . Hahaha . Im starting to love the curry (: Crashed OurSpace to start with ITA pbl discussion and PPCM . I really wanted to sleep . I'm not very hyper today , as you can tell );

Oh yeah , something kind of paisei happened just now .

My bag dropped from the chair that I was sitting on , some of the contents fell out . I didn't know my wallet fell out too , until a guy came to me and asked if that was my wallet :s I don't know why , I just felt damn paisei !! My friends were like " eh , your prince charming ! " Zomg .

Last Friday , Labour Day . Mugged Child Dev theories in the early afternoon . Went over to ECP to cycle nearing the evening . Zomg , ECP was flooded with people . Cycling , blading , camping ! Cycled the two seater bike again (: All the way to area F / G , I think . The slopes were awesome , and the wind was quite strong ! It's like feel the wind in your hair , hahaha (:

Packed dinner back home , and rushed to watch tv programme . Sorry , I'm quite a tv addict !

Went to buy thermometer for school on Saturday . Went to two pharmacies to get , but all tell me the same thing , SOLD OUT !! Wth . Kiasu /: But I still managed to get one from the medical shop , people were buying masks too . Pray hard that Swine flu will be over soon :D School's taking a lot of precautions too . All the stickers to indicate that " I'm well " , still have for mornings and afternoons ! Troublesome :x

After that , I headed over to the library to do research for Child Dev assignments . Had to scan my IC before going in ! Went to look at books for milestones , under the family and parenting section . Looks so much as if , I'm preparing to become a mum -.- Weird feeling .

Managed to get relevant books then met Mummy to eat some snacks cause I was starved . Had chicken burger , and shared a paper prata with Mummy before heading back (:

Didn't go for swimming on Sunday . Dad drove me to J class :D Save me the hassle of travelling there ! Zoe didn't turn up for class , so I sat alone . Learnt a whole lot of new vocabulary . Really needa do revision this week . I even forgot to bring my homework to hand in -.- What's wrong with me ?! ):

I feel so lost in school . Not in terms of the surroundings . But more of assignments etc . Maybe I'm still not used to attending school . Time , time . I guess I just needa the time to adapt , somehow ): I needa see Special Candy , like some energy boost then will be hyper :D

Hahaha , okay Im being crazyyyyy !

Attachment's tmr :D First , can sleep in slightly later (: Dad's fetching me there . I'm quite looking forward to attachment but then the assignments to be done is the more worrying part !
Let's see how it goes . Tmr's quite a short day too :D I think I would be able to handle it .

It has been six days since I last saw you ):

--

tag replies ;

to Cher : Hi Girlfriend :D Yeah , see I'm so nice right ? Getting you ready for poly .
So must study hard and don't disappoint me kay (: Hahaha , yeah my number
of sms is increasing . Can text you soon kay , sorry ! Miss talking to you ):
Love you too , take care :D

to Xueqi : Hahaha , I WANNA SEE YOU TOO :D

to Joanna : Yeah , meet up soon (:

to Germaine : Whoa , caps the beloved sia ! Joking only :P
Don't take it so seriously !

to Shiying : Yeah that's true (: But you don't wanna your birthday to come ? :o
celinesoh@live.com.sg ! Looking forward to talk to you :D

last day of April !

2009-04-30T15:28:00.003+08:00

PS , No photos ):

Currently at home :D Dad was very nice to fetch me home from school today . Lunch-ed at Din Tai Fung before coming back . Will heading back to school soon , for attachment briefing . Zomg , damn siannn . Why briefing has to be from six to seven ?! Why can't it be earlier ):
ITA tutorial today , as usual one word to describe it . BORING ! To the max okay ?! It was sooo dry on all the facts , I didn't pay attention at all . Just download the notes then trying to entertain myself online . Hah
It was raining before ITA , so we had to take a very long route to class with shelters . At least it beats being caught in the rain (:

Lecturer was damn funny at the start -.- She told us , we have to take our temperature etc . Then kept asking us if we're sick , having flu or cough . You should see her reaction , when she saw Waiwan . Cause Waiwan has blocked nose . Hahaha , like damn exaggerating . Say if we have flu , gonna ask us to go out . Zzz ! Tried to stay awake during her non-stop talking . Cramps were killing me ): Sucks . Finally , her tutorial ended . Such a relief !!
Walked over for STB (: STB on the other hand , was soo much more enjoyable . We had much laughs with Ms Chong :D Recording our voices were funnn too . I realised that I sounded so different than I thought . Hahaha . Did a few different speech exercise . Overall , STB was awesome :D

Tuesday's Wricom was good too . Some group work , and msn chats . Went to KAP to meet Amanda with Jolene :D Had dinner there , talks and surfing the net . Had quite a few laughs (: Good times , good times . Never fail to be good and enjoyable with you girls ♥

Wednesday's PPCM was quite okay . We had some activities around the classroom . We had to put on mittens and try to open sweets . If we succeed in opening the candy , we get to eat them . Of course , most of us just take the easy way out . If you know what I mean (: Hahaha . There was FP tutorial , so headed over to Makan Place for lunch with mostly the entire class then to OurSpace with groupmates to finish up ITA project .
S&W was funnnn :D Let me predict , that I would come to love volleyball . Hahaha , Jolene's gonna be happy about this !
Made a new friend , Siying , a tall one (: Something after S&W happened , super funny . One guy stood beside Siying and said " wo hao zi bei " Cause he's shorter than her , his expression and how he said it was just funny ! Hahaha . Paired with Siying , while Jolene and Yanyi together (:
Learnt the basics of volleyball . Looking forward to S&W sessions :D

This week passed by real quick , don't you think ? Or perhaps because last week was quite a drag , it been the first week . Assignments , projects are starting to come up ): Still haven't gotten used to having to study and all . Can't blame , it's only the second week . Attachment next week with Brenda and three other girls from another class (:
Yay ! ECSTATIC that there's no school tmr :D But sad at the same time . Contradicting !
Tonight American Idol results , Top4 . KRIS ALLEN ROCKS :D
Im really looking forward to seeing you soon . Thinking of you ♥

tag replies ;

to Shiying : Awww , CHEER UP :D I understand how school can suck .

Agreed , he's so handsome . Hahaha . You're most welcome (:

to Raihanah : Thanks , but the skin's rather plain (: Hahaha , YES ! I was damn

HAPPY TO THE MAX :D Thanks , I hope I'll see him more often too .

And you must be there to share with me the joy again kay :D

to Germaine : Hahaha , want me to take care have to pay fees :P

Yeah , Im sure you'll recover soon :D Takecare .

to wh : Hahaha yeah , I didn't say outward appearance is not important .

But then again , love is blind :D

to passerby : Hahaha , I don't have the courage . And main point is ,

Im not cut out for dancing . No looks for it also (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAYS TO

YEEJIAT

AND

XUEQI

HAPPY TO THE MAX !

2009-04-27T20:38:00.003+08:00

Apologies for having no photos ):
I myself don't like posts without photos too , they just seem too wordy ! But I really don't have any photo to upload . Hahaha sorry !
Shall do a quick update , before going to watch Table Of Glory :D

I spent Saturday completing my J homework . Okay , I know I take like forever to complete the work given . But I managed to get them done before yesterday's lesson (: I mugged for Child Development module :D Actually , I just read through the relevant stuff and re-wrote my lecture notes . I learnt quite a few new interesting facts , and babies , they're just sooooo adorable :D Hahaha .
Went for swimming , as usual . Crashed Sakae for lunchhhh again :D Eating Sakae just somehow expands my appetite . Which is bad , put on weight ): Clavin went to get crumpler . Omgeee ! Yay , I have an extra bag for school :D And talking about that , I really need a laptop case . Maybe I should get what Jolene just bought , since it's quite cheap :D Worth buying !
J class was enjoyable as usual (: With Zoe's company . Though I kept wanting to fall asleep .
This week only have penmanship for homework , how awesome is that ?! :D
Considering to go for Thursday's class , but I don't think I should rush there after tutorial . Not so advisable (:

Something unpleasant happened , unexpectedly . The feeling was dreadful . It made my heart really ached , I cried for him . I wasn't sure why I was so overwhelmed by the horrible feeling . But things managed to clear up , somehow I reckon . Otherwise , the situation now would be rather tense !

On a lighter note , school's awesome today :D Or at least just the day ! I have yet to start enjoying school yet . Mondays are good days , two hours of lecture in the morning and that's it for the day :D Envious right ! Hahaha . Breakfast at Macs with Dad and Mummy (: Then met Jolene before lecture . Lecture was quite boringgg at certain points . But there was Heather turning around to talk alittle , and Jolene's company :D
After lecture , headed over to Makan Place with my classmates as they wanted to eat . We went to Our Space to start on our project . ITA kills !! I bet Adelle and Adelina would agree sooo muchhh . Cause they had a tough time doing the slides . Jiayou girls :D

After I sort of completed my part , I went to find Jolene , Yanyi and Michelle for lunch (: Went over to the library to slack before heading back with them :D Went to do some groceries shopping with Mummy then got dinner before going home .

Let's see why I'm sooo happy today . Hahaha , it's a secret :D I feel super happy although it's something small . I've been smiling non stop since 10plus this morning :D :D Sorry , I'm abit high now . Pardon me ! And YAY ! Tomorrow can wake up late , at about 10am , cause no attachment yet (: And later America's Next Top Model !
You let me find that smiling could be such a sweet feeling ♥

tag replies ;

to Shiying : Hahaha relax , I'm sure the days will pass by quite soon (:

Cheer up . Is it cause of the lecturer ?

to wh : Hahah slowly find lor , uni confirm have . Inner beauty is more

important anyway :D better say yes . Hahah

to JoleneTay : Absolutely ! She's damn niceee :D I'm quite close to her , among

the girls in my class . Cause the 3 what ? Hahaha

to Cher : Erm yeah ? I think so . (:

I'm not auditioning for NRA . I only dream that I have the courage . Hahah

Thanks anyway . Love you !

to Germaine : I think it's cause of work lor . Like so xin ku /:

Get well soon , and take care :D

so little to reminisce about ):

2009-04-24T17:19:00.002+08:00

Let's jump for joy :D

First week of school has come to an end ! Relieved (: Yesterday's post was kind of done in a rush , cause I was in campus . Hahaha , killing time so I decided to blog in school . Anyway , this morning met my class for class breakfast . Sat with six other girls (: Ate dessert for breakfast -.- Cause I didn't know what to eat , so I just randomly ate something . Walked to class together , on the way out , I saw Raihanah :D

Today's ITA was quite alright . At first , it was really boringggg to the maxxxxxxx . I really wanted to sleep . zzz !

But I couldn't possibly do that while sitting in the front row . I paid attention to most of the stuff she said . Then she finally taught us to some things , hands on (: It was soooo much better than her non-stop mundane talking ! We learnt how to put songs , videos etc into our slides . She also provided us with sample songs which includes Do Re Mi . And photos like sesame street -.- Hahaha . Finally , ITA ended about 2hours later .

We went for CD tutorial (: It was soo much more fun ! First , we did the usual intro game with the lecturer . Then we got to play games , like pick up sticks etc . Unique right ? Don't have to do Maths or anything , can play (: Hahaha . We had quite alot of fun , laughing and playing ! After class , I went to meet Jolene at Makan place (: We waited for Yanyi quite some time , outside . She finally came after we found a seat . You know how tough it is to get a seat !? Dreadful .

Headed back home after lunch (:

Yesterday , Jolene and Yanyi finally came to find me (: Then we went up to the convention center and got ecsorted to seats . Yay , finally saw Raihanah and Sharon (: Dance for funD was quite interesting ! Some of the dances were awesome . Of course , HMS is the best :D Dancing is like , soooo cool (: Cheers , dances etc . HMS didn't win , but I'm sure those that danced all had tons of fun :D After the event , dinner with Jolene at MP before gonna home . Was tired , but got high on the bus back . Hahaha ! I have been reaching home late , guilty ! Watched American Idol , I think the top5 is gonna be a real tough fight ! They're all very good in their own way :D

Okay , that sums up mostly everything for this week (: I'm hoping the weekends won't pass so quickly . Loaded with J homework , assignments from modules . Lazylazy ! So not in the studying mood ):

I shall get back to my modules now !!

I'm happy to see you , but at the same time , I was sad . Mixed feelings , why ?

/ when friends are apart , they tend to drift away from one another .

tag replies ;

to Germaine : Hahaha everyone's tired cause still not used to it lor .

Jiayou jiayou :D

to wh : Hahaha . But I thought you're those JC person . Intellectual leh !

Hahaha

to Raihanah : Yes , I finally got to talk to you :D And you got so high during

the dance for funD ! Hope to talk to you in campus sooon !

exhausted !

2009-04-23T14:25:00.004+08:00

Yay ! I'm so ecstatic that the week is finally coming to an end :D * clapsclaps .
Suppose to be in J class now , but I have yet to complete all my homework . So I decided to just attend on Sunday instead (: I would be able to complete my homework better during the weekends , I'm sure :)

Let's see what I can talk about school . I shall leave out some of the details that are well , rather inapproriate to mention about (:
Tuesday was the best ! I slept in until 10am (: Super elated about that , cause I didn't have to drag myself out at 6 in the morning . Zomg ! Met Jolene for lunch , but I was late . Sorry ! Then went for tutorial at two (: Tutorial was alright , at least it didn't put me to sleep . It was more of an English class . Got to meet with all my classmates for the first time ever . We played a game which let us know each other's names . Met up with Jolene after our classes then walked over to KAP to meet Amanda (: Suppose to have dinner , but we didn't eat . Hahaha , just sat there and chatted , though we were tired . Bus-ed back with Jolene and reached home , late and exhausted ! Only two hours of tutorial can just kill me , hahaha . Low stamina !

Went for breakfast , Wednesday morning (: First tutorial was quite dry . Worst still , we had to sit on the floor for almost two hours straight . Whole legs numb , somemore wearing skirt -.- Shitness !! Next tutorial was very funny , entertaining . The lecturer was hilarious (: and the lesson was short , for only an hour . Have quite a long break before s&w . Went to get pack lunch with my classmates then went somewhere else to eat cause makan place was , flooded with people everywhere /: Lunch was quite boring , it was very quiet . But thank God that Jolene and Yanyi came to find me (: Then went for s&w together . Picked volleyball for s&w , followed Jolene (:
Overall , Wednesday kind of sucked . But I was quite happy for a certain reason :D Yay ! Damn happy . BIG SMILE ! Hahaha
s&w ended very early , so we went to slack tgt . Made friends with Yanyi's friend , Iris (: She's super funny !

Today was quite alright , I have to admit (: First tutorial was boringggggg . Lecturer was damn like a typical chinese teacher . First , she's super irrelevant . Always talking out of point . And she keeps on talking non stop /: It was really damn siannnnn to the max !! Most of us were just entertaining ourselves . Chatted online with people while sitting in the front row :x Adelle beside me was seeing clothes online and Adelina was playing crazy taxi . All in the front row , damn pro right ? (: Hahaha . It was IT application tutorial . Like why do we need that ?! And she teaches things like what's a computer -.- The rest I'm not sure , I was barely listening to her /:

Next tutorial was soooo much better (: At least the lecturer doesn't put us to sleep . And I had quite much fun recording my voice and then listening to it again , though I could barely hear myself -.- Joined Jolene , Yanyi and Michelle for lunchhhh , with Waiwan (:
Now at the convention center , waiting for the dance for fun or maybe just Jolene's tutorial to end and Raihanah to find me !!! Hahaha .
I'm glad school seems to be improving , I guess (: Pray harder .
Im hoping to see you around more often ♥

tag replies ;

to Sharon : Yeah , we must jiayou together (: And start to like school , instead of dread it !

to Germaine : Hahaha yeah lor , school's draining all my energy /:

to Raihanah : Hahaha I only saw you this morning (: But seeing you later !

to Shiying : First day of school only have two hours of lecture . So it was quite okay (: You ?

to wh : Hahaha 12guys lor , damn pathetic . Why wanna come ?

Cause it's concentrated with girls ? (:

to JoleneTay : School's .. erm . I'll tell you when I see you kay (:

Why you say the photos so cool ?

to riaa : Yeah lor , I so agree ! Everyday wake up so early ! Siannnn .

My hair is brown now , partly cause of my highlights (: I wanna it be longer !

to pw : Hahaha okay (: Simple is perfect too !

to Candice : Ookay , relinked (:

first day of poly

2009-04-20T17:44:00.002+08:00

It's time to head back to the books !

Five over months have passed ! In a flash , yes . I can't believe school started today . So fast , it's time to start poly semester already !! How time flies , how fast do we grow up . Okay , enough of the crap !

Went for swimming on yesterday , the usual . Was super worn out , stamina running low ! Crashed Sakae in Wheelock for lunch :D Yummy . Good family time , despite some rough moments . Better not to mention (: Went for J class . Met Zoe in the lift , went to class and sat tgt ! At the start of class , I was at mostly at total lost , but slowly picked up again . See what no constant revision can do to you . Hahaha . At night , busy with all the msn convo , checking of class list etc . Finally went to sleep after Dad's consistent checking and my exhausation getting to me .

Woke up at ailen time this morning , 0605 ! I'm thinking back at what I said . Why did I look forward to school ? :o For one , I dread going to school because I can't sleep in and stay up late . Equals to no late night shows such as America's next top model . Shittt ! I was looking forward to school mainly for one reason , it's a secret . Hahaha . Anyway , I got up early so that I could take car to school . Dad insisted on fetching ! Sent Clavin to school then Mummy to work before heading over to KAP for breakfast .

I wanted to vomit so badly . Zzz , I thought of skipping school :x But I ended up being okay , thank God ! Saw Sharon at the bus stop , but left for LT shortly after meeting Jolene and Clare .

Walked there tgt , with Jolene as the " tourguide " :D Hahaha . I have no idea what happened to my sense of direction , I can't seem t easily find my way around ! Rahhs .

Lecture was alright , because it was barely for two hours (: Though at the start , time seemed to be crawling . Lecturer seems nice , anyway :D

And our cohort broke a record of having 12guys in year1 ! LOL .

After lecture , I went to slack in the library with Clare before going home (: She had tutorial in the afternoon . And so did Jolene right after lecture !

I need a bagpack for school , seriously . Carrying notebook on hand is so tiring ): I just felt it today .

And need laptop cover !

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day . Practical in the morning , which I have no idea where is the venue -.- And tutorial in the afternoon . HMS briefing till seven then dinner . Omgee . Should I go for the briefing just for the cca points ? Hahaha . And for another reason . Hmmmmm

I still have like a ton of J homework due Thursday ! Maybe I should have just stick to going on Sunday . Eight pages of penmanship , so tedious . Seriously ! And another 6 pages of worksheet , madness . Why isn't it still the holiday ? :o

I can't believe I'm complaining , hahaha . Whatever , I'm positive that school will be more enjoyable soon (: And I would sink into the studying mode again ! With God's grace :D

tag replies ;

to Germaine : Yeah I know , just double confirm (:

Hahaha , yes if I have the time lor .

to Cher : Thanks :D Let me get used to schooling first then

enjoy it . Hahaha

to Amanda : You're welcome :D Always here for you !

Love you truckloads !

to ShiYing : Awwww , cheer up :D Don't let her dampen your mood !

to Eileen : Yes , I wish today was last Monday :D Still at camp . Woohoo .

Thanks :D You too , enjoy !

to Cher : Thankyou very much :D Hahaha , love you !

to Candice : You're welcome :D Hahah , not very possible to see me around leh .

to Raihanah : Hahah okay , I guess I won't . I can't bear to do so (:

Let mine grow as long as yours ? :D

to Arun : Eh okay , what's the url ? LOL

to Jolene : Yeah , that's awesome :D I support that thought , you should

create a blog ! Hahaha .

joyful

2009-04-18T14:27:00.002+08:00

I'm still in quite a high mood :D woohoo ! Blame it on FOC (: In a good way , I love being high and happy :D

I should be doing my J homework now , but I can't really be bothered . No , it's not that . It's that I'm just simply not in the studying mood ); Talk about studying , I'm not at all enthu about it . Hahaha ! And basically , I'm having some trouble completing some of the questions in the worksheet . Omgee , but I've no one to ask for help -.- Shall figure them out later , there's until tonight (: Only about one week not touching J , it can rot until this state . Shittt !

I have to confess I haven't been studying as hard for J as the starting weeks of term 1 /:

Dad bought Macs for breakfast yesterday , yummy :D Met Jolene and Amanda at around four for late lunch cum dinner . We crashed Sakae , had buffet (: As usual , I didn't eat alot . And the first time , I actually consumed salmon sashimi . I reckon I ordered the wrong one , then I ate the raw one ); Dumb ! I don't find it nice , frankly . Hahaha

Talks , sushi , camwhor-ed and window shopping :D

Awesome time out though it was for barely three hours or so !

When semester starting , it might get tougher for us to meet . That's a sad thing ):

Anyway , CHEER UP AMANDA :D

Still looking forward to school (:

I'm considering whether or not to cut my hair during the semester . Hmmmm . I thought of cutting my fringe short , but if I really do , I think I'll just suffer from a heartache ): Hahaha . I'm still aiming for my waist length hair !! :D See how , see how !

Okay , I better get back to my work now . Busy week is gonna start (:

Im hopeful to see you somewhere around ♥

tag replies ;

to fatt : Hahaha , thanks :D

to Joanna : Okayokay , but that's so longgg later ! Maybe a movie soon , but

not NC16 also can :D Hahaha

to Raihanah : HELLO HELLO :D Hahaha , I'll tell you who he is soonsoon (:

See you in school ! We can have lunch tgt one of these days yup !

to Eileen : YES ! I LOVE CAMP NOW :D Hahaha , don't you ?

to Candice : Hahaha , mean from the first photo of the last post ? (:

Your handwriting is nice too ! Misses too :D

to Germaine : Hahaha , okayokay . Will link you (: Which url ? Lol .

Okay , one of these days go there visit you (:

to Xintian : Oh ! I'm so honoured (: I didn't know people will miss

me , hahaha . Thanks :D

to Shiying : Hahaha yeah lor , Im surprised that Im actually excited

for it . Same as you right ! Haha

to Sharon : I'll text you (: Looking forward to have lunch with you girls .

to Peiwen : You're welcome (: See you around school ! Takecare .

HMS <3

2009-04-16T16:57:00.016+08:00

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Family day out last Friday (: Enjoyable ! Went cycling then lunch at ECP :D Cycled the double seater with Clavin , awesome . First time experience , but we were both disappointed that time flew by so quickly . We played Snap too , super excited . Hah and fun ! I won the first two rounds . Cool ! And ECP was flooded with many people , from camping to skating to cycling to jogging :D It was a great day out !

Saturday went out with J & J :D To marina square , then town !

Talks , camwhor-ed , neoprints and good food , yoshinoya and cafe cartel :D

Thanks for the belated present :D

Went for swimming as usual on Sunday :D Then immersed myself in Spider solitaire in the afternoon . Met up with Best at Jurongpoint last minute cause she needed company to get stuff (: Dinner at pepper lunch with family after she left . Yet another great day :D

Monday was the first day of FOC . Went for breakfast at Macs with Mummy and Dad at ailen time (: Picked Jolene up before heading over to NP . Finally found the reporting place after circle-ling around school ! Made two new friends in LT :D Super high girls , hahah ! Later had to separate into our sub groups , then went to the loft . Bunked in the masterbed room that my fellow groupmates chose :D Good choice , hahah ! This is worth sharing :

Our dorm had aircon in all rooms , and the living room . There's a kitchen , service balcony , two toilets , six beds and three sofa beds :D

Awesome right ! There was both aircons and fans , COOL ! First time camp get to sleep with aircon (:

First half of camp was quite siann , frankly . Cause we were very quiet and not high ! But slowly after the icebreakers then did we warmed up . Talked more with each other (: I like the first game we played , dog and bone but it was with water bomb . Duper fun !

Icebreakers all afternoon . At night , we had to do planning for camp fire night performance :D Unknowingly , I was like the IC for the thing in my group , like someone said luh ! Night games followed , which only ended at 12am plus . Headed back to dorm and waiting to bathe , only turned in at 2am . Did stuff for performance , waited for hair to dry and use GL's lappy :D Haha .

Day two , we had amazing race (: Went out of school , bus-ed , train-ed around Singapore . Okay , not really the whole of Singapore . We only went to about 5 places . Vivo , haw par villa etc . Got closer to certain groupmates and GL Hongkun :D Had talks and laughs , but details are secret ! Hahaha . Reached school early , went to Cheers to buy snacks before going back to dorm for performance preparations (:
Camp fire night was good :D Some of us saw a shooting star , coooool ! And the sky was filled with quite many stars ! * Jumps for joy . Performances for GLs , Exco , all the sub groups :D

Short disco after all the performances to end the camp fire night ! Got to sleep on the bed the second night :D Hahaha , so much better . Had a serious backache after sleeping on the sofa bed .

Last day , yesterday . Nothing much , pack up , briefings then home sweet home :D Was super sleepy in the LT during the briefings that continued one after another . zomg ! Dad came to pick me up and alighted Jolene on the way :D Thankfully , he could fetch . Hahaha

Overall , FOC was SUPER AWESOME ! I cant believe I'm actually saying that , lol . It was fun , maybe because of the activties or perhaps more of the people :D Heh . Cheers , group bonding etc ! Trivor was the most enthu cause of two GLs (: Had good time laughing & gossiping with Sharon , HongKun and Jessica :D Hahaha .

It was nice knowing all of you : HongKun , Sharon , Jessica , Elaine , Tricia , Jesse , Clare , Chrysan , Peiwen , Issac , Raihanah , Atika , Heather , Dawn and Junkang :D

♥ HMS , Trivor / Kiso :D

I'm looking forward to school . Can you believe it ? Hahaha , it's true . So believe it :D

Thankfully , only have two hours of lecture on Monday ! Yipee .

Okay , I shall end here . It's too wordy for anyone's good , hahaha . It's not like my post is very entertaining right ? (: Thanks for your time , if you read through . Hahaha

Tag replies ;

to Joanna : Of course , I did miss you girl :D

to Cher : Hahah Im texting you already (: Yay !

Yes , can't be emotional . I shall influence you to be being happy like Im feeling

now , super happy :D Hahah ! Thanks , I had loads of fun at camp (:

Love you ! Cheer up yup .

to Germaine : I see . Must take care (: Tired then still using com ? hahaha

to wh : Hahaha yeah lor , but maybe it's cause only Year1 that's why .

But only one day is most slack . (:

to HongKun : Hahaha , still in the camp mood ah :D Didn't finish the cheer ,

so fear your GL , fear fear your GL X2 . So fear ! Hahah . Im looking forward

to your spamming (: LOL !

to Sharon : Hahah I didn't know you like SHE too :D We shall go shopping tgt

with HongKun soon (:

SURPRISE SURPRISE !

2009-04-09T20:28:00.002+08:00

OMGEEEEEEEEEE !

BEST'S BACK FOR A SHORT VISIT :D Yayyyyy !

Hahah . Let me start from the beginning of today (:
Dad sent me for J class today . Yipee , save me from travelling all the way down and spending on the rip-off train fare ! Went lunch with Mummy :D Before I took a seat , I saw ' Peiwen ' appearing on my phone screen . I was like shocked ! My first thought was , isn't Best in Australia ?! How come there'll be a call from her ? Then did I find out she was back :D
But she thought I already knew it before she called me . She wanted to come and surprise me in person . Oh well , I still got surprised anyway (: And I'm sooo glad you're back !
Must make time for me yup ! Tchoukball , badminton , whatever ! As long as can see you , it's good enough :D Hohoho !

J class today was good (: Enjoyable ! My friend , T came today . So we sat tgt in the back row . And Eyecandy turned up for class today too :D But nothing much really happened . Though have a huge chunk of homework again !
After class , it was raining . Got kind of wet , but thankfully Dad came to fetch (: Went to pick Mummy up then headed over to the clinic to get my jab ! Yes , it's over . Two down , one to go (:
Next one would be in September , still quite far away . Goodgood , lol .

Looking forward to tmr's family day out , Saturday and next week's OC :D
My days are gonna get busy soon , with semester starting soon . Looking at my temporary timetable , it's looks awesome :D Like class on Mondays , they're only in the morning until 10am or 11am (: No lectures in the afternoons everyday except Tuesdays and Wednesdays . LOVE POLY ! Hahah . But the shitty thing is , Jolene's timetable is like different from mine ); Sad sad !

Im feeling happy cause Best's back (:
Im feeling happy as I don't feel in that particular way anymore (:

Im feeling happy because it seems like every bit of that is over (:

Im feeling happy now ! :D

tag replies ;

to germaine : So fast start work ? :o Jiayou jiayou !

to Cher : I did , but very late ); Sorry !

Thanks for being such a great girlfriend too :D

Thanks , Im sure school will be fun . And will definitely miss you (:

Yup , hang out real soon . The cake is nice lor , don't deny it !

Hahah . Im so in love with that song (: Love you !

to Shiying : Hahah yeah . Imagine I have 5months of holiday is like -_-

Super longgg ! Hahah .

to YongShan : HEYHEY :D

to Eileen : Yes , you finally did :D Must tag more often okay !

eyecandy & thursday classes <3

2009-04-08T16:55:00.007+08:00

The week's coming to an end soon , how fast ?! OC in less than one week :o

Went to NP with Jolene ytd for her top up . First , I love her white notebook :D Omgee ! I so regret not getting a white one ); Went to lunch at Subway before heading over to school . We rotted there for about an hour for the completion of the softwares .

Train-ed to lot1 after leaving school . Walking around to many places , Cotton On , Macs , library etc . Saw Weiting , some kr people too . Amanda came to meet us after school :D

Crashed KFC to just slack and camwhore :D Chit-chats and doodling , Amanda joined in too while doing her physics . Hah ! Dinner-ed at Pastamania before heading home !

Yay , it was an awesome day :D Anyday with you girls never fail to be awesome ♥

I managed to complete my J homework :D Two sets of penmanship and four pages of worksheet !! Listening was kind of tough , I had to replay it again and again . Hah ! But super relieved that I managed to complete everything . And so looking forward to tmr's J class , somehow :D But not the injection after class /:

Anyway , these few days had been not so terrible as I worried them to be .

tag replies ;

to pw : Hahah okay , seven is alot . Not one only , I've three to take .

Tmr's one is the second one . lol ! Yes , we haven't talked in awhile );

Needa fill you in on what ? :o

to germaine : Why tired ? hahah .

to CHER : Hahah , you're absolutely welcome :D I'm here for you

anytime ! Yes , I recieved your texts already ! Love you too (: imy too !

to CANDICE : You're welcome , special :D

to Amanda : Yes , all the best (: so how did the test go ?

Absolutely agreed :D Hahah . I love you !

to Shiying : Oh I see , all the best on that :D

Im once again at a loss of how I should feel .
But i guess it doesnt matter to you and maybe t me as well .

" the endless ocean of grief that waited stretched out before me . "

my tears & th music

2009-04-06T15:43:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPECIAL ♥

A new week and I can't deny I'm gripped with fear ):

Thank God , I'm feeling much better :D

Sunday was a very tiring day . Dragged myself out of bed at like nine in the morning . Had breakfast before heading off for a swim . Frontcrawl drill was so draining , or just blame it on my poor stamina . Hah ! 100m with timing was kind of sucky , compared to last time which was years ago . Working on it , can't be my present timing is like -.-

Lunched after swim , was starved . It started pouring like mad , so we stayed there for awhile before Dad sent me for J class (:

At first , I thought I entered the wrong class cause my teacher went to cut her hair short . First impression of Sunday's class , negative /: I prefer Thursday's class so muchh better (: But I sort of made two new friends , one of whom is my primary schoolmate and other is a doctor :o Who sat behind me . For one , she doesn't look like a doctor . She looks my age ?! But she's really nice .

We were piled with tons of homework , which I'm required to complete them by this Thursday . Madness ! Hah . But I'm sure I should be able to do them :D I've faith , lol .

After class , train-ed back after getting some stuff . I was dead tired /:

First day at home with Dad for this holiday . If you know the reason okay , keep it to yourself . I'll appreciate it .

So far , the day has been okay . Not as bad as I imagined it to be , thank God (: Tv , read and mugging . Then went out for lunch . A simple day :D

Can't believe school's gonna start in less than two weeks' time . And OC is less than a week away . Omgee !!!

Back to muggin J , playing fb game or drama :D

I didn't know I could be so emotionally weak until I met you .

Like A said , some things really hurts very much .

Tag replies ;

to ShiYing : Hahah yeah lor , so fast !? What does fyp stands for ? :o

Heh sorry .

to Cher : YESYES ! I saw you too , hahah .

I'll try not to be emotional yup . Thank :D Talking

about texting , Im waiting for you to reply me . (:

quick about it . hah

to Riaa : whose hair is gorgeous ? :o Hahah

to LIJIE : Yeah , I definitely remember you :D

Hellohello ! How've you been ? (:

We haven't talked in like 4years , I think . Hah

to Germaine : Hah , you don't remember doesn't matter .

I remember can already (: don't act blur luh .

to Pw : Injection for hepatitis ( sp ? ) B . Required for poly !

Hah , dread having contact with needles );

thanks for the concern , Best :D

to JOLENE : Yup , can't wait to meet you girls tmr again :D

Fun fun ! So looking forward .

over with th impossible

2009-04-04T22:08:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a rough day , a really rough one .
It came quite sudden but yet , I kind of expected it . It gripped me both with shocked and fear ):
I was near to tears , I didn't wish to speak . I was hoping I could runaway , but I couldn't . I had not courage , it disappeared at that point . Who knew how I really felt ? I myself didn't , maybe only God did . In the end , the tears came . I felt slightly better with I had A to talk to about it . Thank God for you , and thank you ! Her words touched me , tears welled up in my eyes once again . But I fought back to keep them in and tried to keep my emotions hidden . Yet I failed .

Something did happened . I was advised to tell -- about it and hoping for some concern because I really needed a shoulder I could cry on . And someone to be just there for me to accompany me and my tears . But I failed to get a word of concern , not even one . I was disappointed , really . I guess there's no point in hoping anything out of you , not now , not ever in the future .
I shall learn to be a big girl now . No more senseless tears . I wish I could be strong and not so useless and brainless as Im now . I chided at myself alot , more than anyone knows .

Goodbye stay home days alone for this last two weeks );
Im hoping it will go alright .
Oh , and I'm so not looking forward to having my next injection this week . Shitt .
I wanna runaway now , please . Or at least let me sleep till it's over , maybe never awaken .
I felt really alone .

incomparable

2009-04-03T11:05:00.008+08:00

Hello April'09 ! The month of starting semester (: and ending holiday );

On Wednesday went to NP with Dad's company :D To do top-up for my notebook . It was quite fast , luckily didn't have to wait very long . And thankfully Dad took half day off to accompany me (: Yay ! I made a friend , sort of . Hah , in the toilet and coincidentally the same school (:

After everything was done , we went to two more places before heading back . Watched movie , I am legend . Scary , like someone told me . So I had Dad to watch it with me :D

And American Idol at night (: Wednesday was quite well occupied for me to not think . And I got tricked by a stupid April fool's prank ! Damn lame but I fell for it , whatever :p

Yesterday , I had to get up at six in the morning ); Super tired ! Sent Clavin to school then went for breakfast at Macs with Mummy and Dad :D Like last year's Thursdays ! After breakfast , we headed over to Clementi stadium for Clavin's school sports day . The sun , was really hot ! Overall , the time there was quite fun (: I miss sports day , all the participating and cheering !

Clavin's house won :D Woohoo ! First time , maybe thanks to my presence . Hah , kidding . I'm not so bhb -.-

We went to have lunch at one of the restaurant in Royal Plaza (: Lunch buffet as post birthday celebration ! Yummy . Pasta , to cooked food , to raw food , seafood , and delicious desserts :D Enjoyable but slightly embarrassing :x When Clavin and I came back to our table after taking the desserts , I had a really HUGE SURPRISE !? Quite a big group of people were standing near our table . And it turned out they were holding a cake and started to sing a unique birthday song to me , REALLY REALLY loudly . * Screams . Really paisei , damn attract attention can ?! It's like one of times when I can ever feel veryvery duper paisei /: But was grateful (: Making my post celebration a memorable one ! Hah . Was indeed shocked and embarassed :x but fun !

After lunch , we went for a short shopping before heading home :D Went to visit MNG ! Bought one bottom and top (: Mummy paid for it , thanks ! Went to get a present for Clavin too , which costed me my next week's pocket money . But don't really mind (: He's always so nice to me , hah !

Things and mood took a slight turn , sad to say ); Thanks Amanda for being there (:

And hope everything will be okay for dad , and us ! Amen .

And BEST , thanks for the card you sent over :D Im super surprised to recieve it ! Hah . My first card or anything from overseas ! Love you !

Tag replies ;

to Joanna : it's alright . better late than never (:

thankyou for wishing despite it's belated :D loveyou too , yes

go out soon !

to Germaine : Hahah okay , I'll hold you to your words .

Don't come tell me it's me who wants you to get present for me hor ! Hah

I don't remember any other time MrHeng suan me sia . Only MrChan ! lollol .

Agreed , it's almost everyone .

to JoleneTay : Hahah yes , it's very sincere :D Thanks again !

Yup , meet soon . But first , must study hard so your mum will be pleased (:

to Amanda : Thanks love :D I enjoyed my day with you girls too , like I always

do ! Yes , i love my presents (: And I really do love you veryvery much !

Im tryin t find reasons but I reckon I long did so .

It's due t my current level of importance , it's no longer t same .

It never will be , 24hours and 3minutes . I give up .

Now I can see t difference and how easily forgetten Im by you .

sixteen + one !

2009-03-31T10:46:00.007+08:00

Thank God for making my birthday an enjoyable one , overall :D

Morning terrible ); But afternoon and evening were awesome (:

Went for birthday lunch with Mummy at Prego ! Yummy :D On the way to city hall , I saw Lixian on the train :o surprise surprise ! I was early , so had to wait for Mummy to come .

We had soup then followed by pizza (: I wanted dessert , but was too full to eat anymore .

After lunch , we went to get some stuff from Robinsons before Mummy had to get back to the office . Recieved a missed call from JoleneTay , when she called me the next time , she wished me happy birthday :D She says call would be more sincere , ahaha !

Train-ed back after Mummy and I separated . Came back to play fb games before leaving again , to meet Amanda and Jolene at Jurongpoint :D Crashed Din Tai Fung for an early dinner ! I ate the same food again , as well as the same dessert . Hahah ! I felt so much better , happier with the girls (: Of course , I enjoyed lunch with Mummy too :D We laughed , talked alot !

After dinner , we had to find some place to sit and continue our talks (: So we went to starbucks ! We parted at around seven plus , cause Amanda had to go for ballet ! Hah .

Yay ! I was happy to be home too (: I was dead tired . I only had about 6hours of sleep !? But I still stayed up watching tv programmes . Fei lun hai was on campus :D Woohoo ! Wuzun's super the handsome :D Hahah . So is Ya Lun ! Caught American's Next Top Model too . This week's photo shoot was quite tough , but the make up was nice :D I only slept at about 12plus after campus results ended .

Overall , the day was enjoyable :D Thank you Mummy , Amanda and Jolene for spending time with me on my birthday (: (: Though simple , but I was happy for their company ♥

Thanks to everyone whom have wished me on my special day :D

Really appreciated ! It means alot (:

In order of recieving :D

By text :

Cheryl

HuiMian

Eileen

Fransiska

Wilson

Xinying

Marcus

Simin

RenFeng

Mummy :D

Amanda

Lixian

Clavin :D

Dad :D

YeeJiat

Jolene Kong

Suriani

Yuhong

Peiwen

Joey

By others :

Msn ; WenHao , Charles and Germaine

Tagboard ; XinTian , ShiYing , Cheryl , YongShan and Candice

FB ; Pearlyn , Aaron , WanJuan , Jolene Kong , ShenFaye , Aneesha and Marvin

Call ; Jolene Tay

Birthday seems like it takes ages to arrive , but once it's here , it's gone so quickly ):

My 17th life should be new , a new start . Let go of all the unhappiness and be happy ! Let go of the past and be indifferent towards it (:

I will and I can ! With God :)

Tag replies ;

to Cher : Thanks girlfriend :D Loves loves too !

to ShiYing : I see , seems fun (: The surrounding's like quite nice right ?

Good place to camwhore :D Hahah .

to YongShan : Thanks sweetie :D

to Candice : Thankyou special :D

ONCE AGAIN ,

BIG

THANK

YOU

what a birthday feeling

2009-03-30T08:23:00.015+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D

Let's start off with last Thursday !

Lunch with Mummy at Sun with Moon before J class . Two words to describe it : Simply awesome :D Had many good laughs , I felt happy ! After lunch , we walked tgt to class . I saw eyecandy on the way , surprise surprise :D Yay ! Class had only 7 of us , pathetic but fun (: Teacher was happy to see me , and so was I . New study etc (: After class , went to Mummy's office and saw Hanna on the way . I didn't even know it was her , oops ! Macs for dinner (:

Friday went for KrO . Met Jolene and Eileen then walked to Clementi Stadium tgt (: It was super warm , maybe because of the crowd or the Sun . Though the number of people at the stand seemed to have lessen comparing to the previous years :o Camwhor-ing and talks with different people . Champ this year is Auriga , but Cassio got the cheer champ :D Not bad ! Post KrO was more fun ? Hah . Went to talk to MrChan , cause haven't seen him for a longlong time .

And as expected , he asked me which course I'm in currently . He told MrKoh about my course , and it was damn loud /: Like broadcasting can ?! MrHeng happened to be there also , hence the suan-ing session starts . MrChan & MrHeng start suan-ing tgt , it's just killer ! Hah

I rather not mention what they said , it was like whatever -.-

Helped them carried out the stuff to be loaded in the teachers' cars , tgt with Eileen . I went to play with the loud hailer :x Outside of the stadium , MrChan asked me to use the loud hailer and call MrHeng . It was super loud ! And when I turned to my right , MrKoh was looking at me :x Scary sia , even though I'm ex student /: It was super fun , but damn paisei and stupid when getting suan !

Went to town with Jolene after that :D Bus-ed there cause of some irritating people , hah !

Crashed Sakae for teatime buffet before leaving !

Shopped , camwhor-ed , talks , laughs ♥

Went shopping with Mummy on Saturday , got a new top :D Hah . I didn't pay for it , so it's okay ! Oops . And I went to calculate roughly how much I've been spending since 20Feb , the figure is a shocker ); Hah . I think when school starts it won't be so muchhh already , hopefully !

I got a MEGA HUGE BALLOON for my birthday from Mummy :D It's super duper nice , loveee it . And it got me quite alot of attention on the way home . * Screams

Sunday was even better :D

Swimming in the morning ! Way exhausted but felt alot better after the swim (: Went for dinner at Din Tai Fung , my new obsession . Hah ! The food is just great , and the service is good too (: After dinner , we went to design my cake ! DIY is cool but tough . I wanted to achieve perfection but to no avail . Dad helped me with mostly everything , the words :D Thanks ! If not , I think without his help , I would be stuck designing for years ?! Overall , it was fun :D Having to designing your own cake , and the cake was delicious ! I love them , they're the best ♥

But today , I am suppose to feel happy . But I wasn't , surprised ? );

I was sad . Birthdays are suppose to be with smiles and happiness right ?
Why is it there were tears but not tears of joy ? :o Shittt .

I slept around 12plus this morning , and woke up 6am plus . Nuts !

I might blog private ! But I'm hoping to be happier as the hours of today pass by , will I ?

Tag replies ;

to Xueqi : Thanks ! Super nice :D Hah .

to Candice : Hah , but you're already chao da . Still wanna be darker ? :o

Okay , we can go tanning again soon (:

to ShiYing : Oh , nevermind . I'm sure if fate allows , you'll see him again (:

Really ? I thank you on behalf of the blogshop owners :D Hah .

And thankyou for wishing me :D

to Germaine : Lol . Up to you , to forget or remember bahh .

to Jolene : Hahah , I can't wait to see you girls later :D

Not very excited about OC , but I'm sure it will be fun ! Love you .

to Cher : You're very welcome (: And yes , I love your present , definitely !

Love you girlfriend :D

I'm half happy , half unhappy ! Hmm .

to Xintian : Thanks , you take care too (:

Birthday lunch with Mummy , and dinner with Amanda & Jolene :D

My birthdays can never feel the same again after my last );

random talks

2009-03-25T13:56:00.002+08:00

Stay home day :D

Thank God , I had a real good sleep until 1040 this morning (:
Msn chats , sms-ing , fb gaming filled my late morning ! I've been feeling happy , and ecstatic about that . Maybe it's because I'm turning 17 soon , that I'm excited or otherwise . Whatever the reason is , the main thing is I'm happy :D But frankly , I'm kind of worried about my birthday . Hah !

Random talk on msn with SJ yesterday about cakes , cookies and icecream -.- Damn lame , but whatever . I laughed quite alot , and thought alot about school days ! I really miss the times with friends , classmates etc . Where we mugged together , played or gossip in class (: And recess times with Best , Joey , Jolene and Kar ! Talking about school , semester's starting in less than a month . And OC's arriving too );
Anyway , I regret not getting the purple chromatic /: The colour seems to be way nicer than the blue that I've . Shittt ! Life's just full of regrets , you know .

This post is random , but the main part of the post is to help advertise :D
PLEASE VISIT AND SUPPORT ! TYVM .

BLOGSHOP

PS : Not owned by me , but it's someone trustworthy (;

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Time to eat , I'm starving ! And to complete my homework for tmr :s
Looking forward to the upcoming days :D Yay !

You're only part of a memory :)

INSOMNIA

2009-03-24T16:45:00.009+08:00

:D Yay !

I got back my camera in a good and working condition (: Super ecstatic ! Hah .

Just came back from Harbourfront . Went to meet E just now to get something for someone (: Met at town , went for lunch at pastamania ! Cause I was craving for pasta , but I ended up barely touching my food -.- I didn't have much appetite and I was feeling full ! After lunch , we went to walk around and I bought a skirt ! * GUILTY ); Say no to shopping , as if ! The skirt was on 20percent discount that's why . Hah .

Anyway , I recieved my first birthday present :D

E bought it on the spot and gave it to me ! Thank you (: Star care bear !

We separated after we got the present (: She went to meet her friend . So I went to KBT to collect my camera ! Then train-ed back after that .

I'm super tired now ! Yawns . Insomnia last night again ); Shitty !

Caught America's Next Top Model , awesome :D And campus' results . Yay ! Fei lun hai's appearing on campus next week (: And gonna IMM this Sunday ! I wanna go , but I needa to find someone to go with me O.0

Oh , I've to complete my J homework by this Thursday :s Crap , I haven't even started . NP vacancies all full -.- So I'll continue at the one in town instead , same teacher :D * claps !

Pray that I'll have a good night sleep tonight (:

I question myself , if we are friends . But then again , I don't care , do I ?

I hardly ever have you in my thoughts and I'm glad :)

Tag replies ;

to ShiYing : Hahah sorry ! But you know that I'm the one who tagged can already ,

hah :D

to Cher : Hahah yes , it's coming already ! So fast !?

You seem to be as excited as I am , hah .

Say no !

2009-03-23T11:08:00.002+08:00

No photos post !
* I'll get them soon (:

The weekends were well occupied with much activites :D
Headed over to Grandparents' place after Clavin's tuition in the evening ! I spent the morning & afternoon sleeping , watching tv , reading a book and playing DS (: My stomach upset came back to find me again ): Sadness . When will it just go away ?! Shittt . I didn't have much appetite for dinner , but still ate anyway ! I miss my grandparents , the last time we saw them was during CNY /: That's freaking long ago . Hah ! I recieved my first birthday present from Grandma :D Unexpected , I thought she won't remember . LOL ! Thanks ♥

Clavin , Mummy and I played two rounds of GameOfLife , while the rest of them ( grandparents , Dad & Uncle ) ate stinky durians . * faints ! Had many good laughs during the game . It was just awesome ! I won the second round , with 975000bucks :D
Imagine I had that money in real life . Ohmytian , think about the number of clothes I can buy , and get a bigger wardrobe to fit my clothes . Hahah ! AS IF !
We left their place around 9plus after that show ended . At home , we watched HarryPotter before Clavin went to turn in . Soccer started even before HarryPotter ended , so I ended up staying up to watch till 1am . Believe it , hah !

The referee was just blind , seriously ! He sucks ?!?! He was obviously biased towards Fulham ( sp ? ) Stupid !! He anyhow give yellow / red card to ManU players -.- But when he's suppose to give , he just turn a blind eye ! Asshole , send Rooney off ! Like for nothing ! If not , maybe it won't have been a lost 0-2 );

Sunday went shopping with Jolene in the early afternoon , I was super late . Sorry !
I ended up spending money too . Cause the stuff are like 2 for 30bucks etc , that's why .
I bought another pair of flats for 12.5o and two shorts for 30bucks (: It's reasonable , you know .
But I felt so guilty of shopping , AGAIN ! I just shopped last Tuesday :x
So I'll have to SAY NO TO SHOPPING for at least until April !!
My wardrobe's like exploding with clothes , I went to count yesterday ! I have about 60tops :x Hah . It's time to get rid of somemore clothes to make way .

We went for PrimarySchool class gathering after shopping , but there was only the pathetic number of us , about 6 -.- Yet , it was still enjoyable :D
Laughs , talks , food and shopping ! But I bought no more (: NUM's having sale ! 20percent off flops , I think . I wanna a dupe flops :D Hah .
We separated at around 6plus , train-ed back with Jolene & Amanda (:
Dinner at home , then gaming after bathe until 10plus . I couldn't get to sleep until 1am , even though I was damn exhausted /: Insonmia , lollol !

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tag replies ;

to Riaa : Hahah yeah , thanks :D I'll remember to do so next time !
But I don't wanna burn my face anymore . Hah .
Agreed , he's duper hot :D Hahah !

to Best : Relax , it's not really a badminton girls' outing !
We'll go with you when you're back to visit kays ? :D
Hope to see you sooon !

to Shi Ying : HELLO :D linked you already !

to Germaine : lollol -.- You even say you will forget my birthday , that means
you still remember that my birthday's coming . HAHAH ! No link ~

to Joanna : I miss you too ! Must really meet up soon kays ? :D

to Amanda : Hahah , hey love :D
I love you more than I love Din Tai Fung , hahah!

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I'm so guilty of spending money !
I'm so guilty of shopping );
But a girl's born to shop and spend money , hahah (:
Rip-off bus / train fare isn't helping . I just topped up last week , 20bucks . Now I'm left with 3 or 5bucks . What's this ?!?!

burnt bitch !

2009-03-20T11:21:00.002+08:00

Firstly ,

Happy belated birthday to Cheryl [ 18March ] ,

Eileen & RenFeng [ 19March ] :D

It's the end of another week , another week closer to life of seventeen ! C:

This week was quite packed with outings , awesome days !

Tuesday went to catch Race to witch mountain with Clavin :D Movie , action-packed . Not bad , interesting . Hardly watch action-packed , it's always chick flick or some love movie . Hah .

Lunch-ed together , went to get birthday present for E too . Saw Joanna at icing palace but didn't go up to her :x After all that , home sweet home !

Wednesday , went Sentosa with Joey , Candice & Eileen :D I was late , cause I had some stomach problem ); Shitt it , hahah . Thanks and sorry Candice ! She waited for me before we train-ed down to meet Joey & Eileen then to Sentosa . Before we board the Sentosa Express , Joey was eating chips . A girl approached her , and asked if Joey can help them take a photo -.-

Joey was eating , how to take ? Hahah . In the end , I helped them instead . And when we just reached Harbourfront , we all had a really good laugh :D Thanks to Joey ! Duper funny !

We went to Siloso , but this time , unlike Sunday , the Sun was bright and hot :D * Clapsclaps ! We played frisbee , tanned , heart-to-heart talks :D Awesome ! I got bullied during frisbee , I'm always the monkey and for a long time ); Hah . I wanted to swim to the 3m pole , but didn't reach all the way there yet quite near ! Joey and I stayed in the water for one over hour , without realising . About 2plus , we went to wash up then left sentosa .

We walked alot before we went for latelate lunch to get my stupid camera fix ! That explains , the lack of photos . Some problem happened while we were at the beach , so I had to send my camera for repair . Thanks for accompanying me :D

Candice left after that , we went to crash Yoshinoya . We were dead hungry ! 4pm for lunch );

After lunch , we went shopping ! Got two tees :x Then train-ed back with Eileen .

Thurday ; Last J class ):

Went for lunch with Mummy & Clavin at JurongPoint before train-ing down to Orchard . Was late for class , and took the last row seat . Someone took my usual seat ! I was dead tired , but not sure why . I slept during the first break , throughout ! Maybe due to my burnt . I'm super burnt , still burnt today ! Hah . Face super red and my shoulders hurt alot .

Time passed quite quickly , soon lesson was over D: Walked to train station with T , we exchanged numbers ! Home sweet home .

I'm gonna miss my teacher ): She's super nice ! But I'm trying to enrol for Jap course in NP instead , it would save the time to travel downtown etc. And the school fees , way cheaper :D

But limited to 25students only ! Worst still , I've to start from the beginning /: If I wanna jump level , I'll take exam first to see if I'm qualified . But I don't think I'm well prepared enough to sit for a Jap exam , seriously !

Today's another stay home day :D Good , less people will see my super red face . Hah . Yesterday , the burnt was even more pain than the first day ); But today isn't so pain and red already , thank God !

Anyway , please support this blogshop :D click here

Helping to advertise , but the person don't wanna me to mention her . Hah !

Tag replies ;

to Amanda : Hey love , I had loads of fun too with you girls :D

Yeah , birthday soon ! Takecare too , hope to see you Sunday ?

I love you too !

to Cher : Thanks , I did fun that day :D Hah yeah , you're like

texting & tagging me at the same time ! Love you too , girlfriend :D

to Candice : Special ! Thanks for the day too :D

You're chao da now , I'm sure you love your tan now right ? Hah .

Love you !

PS : will upload the other photos soon , in about 2weeks . Or whenever I get back my camera ):

Screwed . No camera for birthday ! boohoo .

what a blast

2009-03-16T11:55:00.007+08:00

Apologies for the first two sets of photos , sized rather small .

View from facebook if you have :D

Hello people ! I'm ecstatic now (: Don't ask why , I've no idea either . And I realised I haven't blogged in ages . My laptop crashed , thanks to the virus . Had to wipe out everything in my com , so this morning I was busy with all the installations etc . That explains me not having to update the past few days ! But now I'm back , so keep the tags coming in :D I don't mind flooding , you know . Hahah .

Thursday's J class was awesome , as per usual :D Second last lesson of the term . But I really wanted to sleep during class , was totally restless . Though there were some funny incidents during the lesson (: Didn't have lunch with Mummy cause she was feeling unwell , so I ended up being just on time for class . Have a whole worksheet with four pages of homework to be done , all in hiragana / katagana ! Screams . But I completed three pages last night , claps :D

Friday , was stay home day with Mummy . She was on MC ! Had fun talking about anything under the sun :D

Rise and shine early on Saturday and headed to NP to get my notebook (: Went down to pay for it , saw Aaron randomly . Hah . Some stuff happened , but shouldn't really be mentioned . Anyway , have to go back to school to get the top-up stuff for my notebook one of these days ! Troublesome leh . Went to hand in camp form , asked a lady where to hand in . Then she was like " you can go there and find the people from the school of life science "

Zzz . I'm not in school of life science -.- Hah whatever ! After that , we went to lunch at Makan place then sent Clavin for tuition before gonna back .

Installed anti-virus stuff on my com before I went to do registration for NP (: Pizza for dinner , yummy ! But fattening -.-

Sunday was another blast , fun-filled day :D

Swim as usual , Sunday's new rountine . Coach wanted me to swim butterfly but told him I couldn't cause of my back . Yay , skip butterfly (: Thank God ! Hate butterfly , it's tiring );

So it was basically just the rest of the strokes , did about 20laps of 50m . It's enough to kill , hah . I haven't swim consistently okay ! After swimming , we drove up to pay respect to my late grandma . Time flies , this Thursday would be the 2nd year since she passed on .

When we were leaving , I spotted a cloud that was in the shape of a cross :D And it was a super duper huge one . So duper cool luh , somemore we were at the Christian side of the cemetry !

Lunch-ed at Sakae , yummy :D Then headed to Clementi to meet Amanda & Jolene before train-ing down to Sentosa ! Vivo , teaming with tons of people . Scary ! Went to FoodRepublic first , Amanda needed to have lunch . Someday for suntanning . By the time , we were at Siloso , the grey clouds were all over ); The photos are evidences ! There wasn't Sun at all , saddening ! We sat on the sand for awhile , camwhored :D Before it started drizzling ! We left Sentosa just like that , 3bucks wasn't well-spent ); But it wasn't much of a choice , it was raining . We couldn't go anywhere ! We decided to go shopping instead (:

We visited Fox , Six , Forever21 , Diva etc . Jolene and I bought the same skirt which cost us 43bucks from Forever21 . Kind of a ripoff , but everything's like expensive now . And the more I see the skirt , the more I was tempted to buy it (: Hah . So ended up buying it and loving it ! The excuse for buying clothes , for poly use :D What a good excuse , I love it ! I couldn't find the necklace I wanted the other time , so sad . But I found another necklace I like from Diva , so I'm considering (: Yay , shopping is fun ! When you've the money to spare , hah .

Had early dinner at LJS (: Chatted , laughed and ate . After dinner , we went upstairs to the open air area to sit around and talk . Two words to describe it : TOTALLY AWESOME :D

The time just passed by unknowingly , soon it was already late evening . We camwhored somemore before I had to leave , stupid curfew );

Train-ed back with Jolene , while Amanda bus-ed back . The journey was quite short ! Reached home before 9pm (: Counted late but whatever , I didn't get a scolding ! Yay , love my parents :D Randomm . Hah !

Looking forward to meeting this two girls again , soon :D

Thanks for the day , girls ♥

Plans for this week :

Today - Stay home day :D

Tuesday - Date with Clavin

Wednesday - Sentosa with Candice & Eileen ( Please don't rain again ! )

Thursday - J class & lunch with Mummy

Friday - Stay home day :D

Saturday - No plans !

Sunday - Swimming

Tag replies ;

to Cher : I can't meet you this week lor , you're so busy hor ! Hahah .

Better make time for me ah . Studying's okay luh (: I don't really mind ,

only studying for a certain subjects . Definitely not Chinese & Geography , hah .

to Xueqi : Hahah , typical Xueqi reaction . Camp ? NO ! Hahah .

But why don't wanna ? Later first day of school loner how ? :x

That's true , you should have waited for the price to drop . It

confirm will drop de . You buy at the wrong time !

to Xintian : Thanks for the compliment :D Take care too , my dear !

to Candice : Special :D Yup , wednesday ! Looking forward to Wednesday :D

sudden thought

2009-03-10T13:09:00.002+08:00

ARIES - The Daredevil
Energetic.
Adventurous and spontaneous.
Confident and enthusiastic.
Fun. Loves a challenge.
EXTREMELY impatient.
Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (Easily angered.)
Lively, passionate, and sharp wit.
Outgoing.
Lose interest quickly - easily bored.
Egotistical. Courageous and assertive.
Tends to be physical and athletic.

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Stupid blogger , take forever to upload one photo ): And some stupid problem on my com keeps popping up ! Sian . My mood's kind of negative today , due to the days of the month /: And my back hurts like hell . The pain hasn't gone away since last night , except when I sleep ):

It's killing me !!

I sit down also pain , get up also hurts , sometimes walk also pain D: Wtf . It's like I can only sleep and do nothing else .

Woke up at almost eleven just now .
Nothing much planned to do today , maybe just play & watch drama or study (:
I wanted to pack , but with my back like this , I don't think I'm up for it ! Shitttt .

Dear Celine,

I MISS YOU!

You have a nice caring heart.

You make me feel comfortable pouring out to you.

You should stop emo-ing and start loving urself as much as i love you.

Someday I will be the one who floods your room with starry stuff.

You + me = BESTIES/SISTERS tgt with joeyyyyFOOL.

If I saw you now I'd give you a BIGGGG HUGGG.

I want to be able to spend days tgt with you. (like back in KR)

I would build a starry room just for you.

If I could sing you any song it would be 'that's what friends are for'.

We could reunite with joey,gossiping and what not under the stars.

Love,

Peiwen

(P.S. I REALLY MISS YOU BEST!.)

Best wrote this for me on Facebook :D Super touching , hahah . I really miss her , hope to see her soon (:
Bye ! I can't stand the stupid thing popping out in front of my face every 3minutes , gonna run virus scan now !

I had a sudden thought about you . Something on the tv triggered that thought .
It was stupid , but inevitable ! I couldn't help but feel slightly down while thinking
about it . Dumbass , cel ):

cloudy day !

2009-03-09T10:54:00.004+08:00

Tag replies ;

to Cher : Oh really ? Hahah . But I don't fear death so much leh , maybe I do just that I'm

unaware (: Hahah . See you soon ?

to XueQi : Yeah luh , so can't totally say it's my songs ! Hahah .

My mum went to check with the person , they say buy from school will have

up to 5years warranty (: You gonna for orientation camp ?

The price of Vaio CS dropped is it ? LOL .

Another week of March :D I'm somewhat like looking foward to the end of the month , but at the same time , I don't wanna April to arrive just yet . I ♥ holiday-ing (: I don't deny the fact that it's getting a little boring at times , but I don't think I wish to get back to mugging anytime soon . Hahah , lazy you know ! Truth is , I'm kind of scare to start school /: New people , new school environment , new studies and the list continues ! Thankfully , I'm not alone (: Most probably will be going for orientation camp with Jolene one week before school starts , then maybe make friends so that when school offically starts , it won't be so weird (:

It's gonna rain soon :D Time to sleep ? Hahah . Randommm -.-

I kind of forgot how I spent Saturday :x The bad thing of having too much holiday is the brain gets quite slow , without all the constant mugging and thinking ! Hahah . I think I studied J and did my しゅくだい :D Recieved the orientation post ! Found out that NP offers us to learn foreign language . So Dad says can go there and learn instead of at town ): The good thing is , I don't have to purposely travel all the way down . And if I can't make it on Thursday , I might have to wait my turn on the waiting list ! The bad thing is , I don't wanna stop studying there ): The reasons are obvious :D See how first , cause NP's form is like confusing so shall check it out this Saturday !

Went to swim again yesterday morning (: Stomach muscles ached again /: This time , it hurted even more . Did at least 10laps of 100m , shag ! Last 10minutes , we had relay . We only won one of the three turns . But whatever , it was still fun (: Butterfly kills , frontcrawl rocks ! I met Coach's children , they were actually there last week just that I didn't know -.-

After swimming , we headed to JurongPoint for lunch , DinTai Fung ( again ) Hahah (: Chatted happily during lunch ! Very much enjoyable . The guy over the next table was like eavesdropping at the our conversation , Mummy caught him laughing ! Amongst ourselves , I was like saying " Doesn't he know that it's bad to eavesdrop ?! "

And his wife dropped the spoon , but the waiter didn't get mad or anything . Instead , he showed concern whether she's got hurt of not . That's what I call excellent service :D

I got a new bedsheet :D Somewhat an early birthday present !! I love the colours & design . I wanted one of the comforter cover , but didn't manage to get it ): You know how it feels when you get all attracted to the beautiful colours ! Went to Popular to get stuff before heading to the sport shop to get Clavin's school shoes . I saw an awesome bottle , that was hot pink :D But I wasn't allowed to buy . I have like 4-5 bottles already , hahah . That's the reason ! But I really like the colour ): It's the Nike hot pink , tall and slim ! * Hinthint :P

Yay ! Two more days to a new month for phone bill . It's killing me ! I'm paying for every sms I'm sending out to non Singtel users . I think my sms itself this month accumulate at least 10bucks , or maybe lesser . Only have that stinking free 500sms to all users , so little ): I still have to wait for months , before can change / upgrade plan . My phone's not even 1year yet . Shittt ! But whatever , I haven't gotten scolding yet :D And I haven't also texted over a 1000 , I can control okay ! Randommm .

It has been raining almost everyday since last week .

What's with the weather ? Is March a raining season ? I didn't know .

God , please don't let that worst case scenerio happen , please please ):

randommm

2009-03-06T17:43:00.002+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Death Over all things the one issue that you are most terrified about is dying. You can't stand the thought of how you will die, when you will die, and what will happen after you die. Chances are you can be slightly paranoid, sensitive, or superstitious at times. Your nervous and apprehensive nature may turn people away from you sometimes. The truth is that everyone has to face death some day, so just get your mind off dying and start living for the present.
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Tag replies ;

to XueQi : Hahah , how come my music will scare the hell outta of you ? Must be the volume
on your speakers very high !! Really ? I thought before we get the notebooks they'll already help us installed leh . If we still have to arrange for them to help us install , then buy from outside might be better (: But your notebook have how long warranty ? From school , we have for three years that's why my parents not so keen to get from outside/:
Yupp eye candy :D Hahah ! You sound so surprised . Oo

to Cher : Miss you too ! ♥

happier girl

2009-03-06T11:53:00.002+08:00

Celine's feeling happy :D Happier than before ! I'm quite surprised to why I'm feeling happy , but there can be no specific reason ? (: I'm happy , it's that simple . Plus , I'm feeling lighter and a whole lot different ! I've let go and accepted it :D
I'm glad I did . Best , thanks for telling me :D If not , I would be still emo-ing & wasting my brain cells thinking of ____ etc . And Amanda & JoleneK are such sweeties ! They've been there for me , like always ♥
That has finally come to an end ! Heaving a huge sigh of relief (:

I shall be rotting today ! I'm exhausted to do anything , other than just lazing around (: I just caught the third episode of ' ToGetHer ' . Super nice :D I've no idea what to do after this . Maybe play FB games or something . Suppose to meet A & J either yesterday evening for dinner , or this afternoon but ended up not successful /: But we'll meet up soon ! Miss you girls (:
Usual late nights is kind of killing me . Eye bags , either flu or cough ); It has to stop , but now not used to turning in early ! But I wanna watch tv programmes . I'm following American Idol8 on Wednesdays & Thursdays nights (: I support like practically all the top9 so far ! And the host , Ryan Seacrest is kind of cute ! Hahah . There'll be the wildcard show tonight (:

Yesterday was an awesome day :D
Train-ed down to meet Mummy for lunch as usual . Lunch-ed at MosBurger (: Butterfly prawns , yummy ! I saw someone that almost made me swallow my heart /: There was a person sitting in the next table that looked like _____ , when I saw the person I almost jumped out of my seat . But after a second look , it wasn't _____ , thankfully ! But it really looked like /: Sian .
But whatever , it didn't affect my mood after that (: Went up for class early , cause Mummy had to clarify some stuff with the school . I might not be able to continue with J class , it depends );
Poly timetable would only be out on 17April , when school starts 20April -.- I may have lectures or whatever school activities , so I can't attend my current class slot ! But practically all the other class slots are full , kind of impossible to do replacement there . So I'm like on waiting list for other slots , in case I can't make it for my present slot . And I'm somemore the sixth on the list -.- So many people waiting , sian ! Aye , it's just complicated /:
I just wanna most of my classmates to remain the same , and no change of teacher ); I like my teacher veryvery much . She's duper niceeee :D

And the worst thing is , there's only 2lessons left to this term . Which means only two more times to see Eye Candy ♥ ! Only two ); Unless , he still continues in the same slot then maybe have another extra 4lessons (: What're the odds ? Hmm .
Yesterday , he was so cute in some way (: Hahah . He sat at the front row with his friends , and the dustbin was in front of the table . During class , he did some action then something of his fell right into the dustbin . He crawled under the table to retrieve it . Hahah , his friend laughed damn loud , which caught all our attention . & coincidentally , we kind of wore the same colour top (: My friend came yesterday too ! But not next week , she'll be flying to LA ! *Envious much . She's working in the Japan airlines . Cool ! Walked with her to the train station , then separated as we were going the different direction . Went to find Mummy , fetched Clavin then home sweet home :D

I don't have any plans at all for next week , only J class on Thursday ! Pathetic . Maybe it's time to just rest , sleep and pack stuff ! I'm looking foward to 29th , I'm gonna design my own cake for my birthday :D Mummy said if I wanna to do it then she'll pay ! Yay , of course I wanna do (: Hahah . These are the best days of the year :D
Enjoy the weekend , byes !

never was perfect

2009-03-04T15:25:00.004+08:00

after mugging session (:
post V day card :D

Snapped by JoleneTay !

It seemed like a really long day since last morning until now ! I don't know what's wrong with this year , like seriously . I've been finding out many things that makes me unhappy , not that you care ? I know . My only 2009 resolution seems so tough to keep up . Mummy tells me , it's easy to be happy . Why is there a reason not to be ? If life is simple , and everything is smooth sailing , I would be happy . But things are never simple and smooth sailing , that's reality ! But I'm trying my best to stay happy with the help of God , and my dearest girlfriends :D I'm grateful for them . Reallyy !

Was suppose to meet Amanda at JP for lunch at two , but Mummy cooked lunch for me & I was still playing FB game when it was 1plus . Haven't eaten or bathe /: So I rushed to shower , and Amanda came to crash my place for lunch instead . Hopefully , lunch was okay for you :D We were ranting much about ~~stupid assholes~~ that made of lives partly miserable . And we were each other's listening ear (: Went Facebook-ing then Amanda mugged Chem while I played Word Challenge :D Yay ! I'm 15th position now . Talked to Best online too (: I found out something , which affected me quite greatly /: I couldn't focus on my game . I was near to tears , but whatever . Luckily , I had Amanda beside me . I would have definitely felt worst ! The feeling stinks , sucks ):

Around four , I walked Amanda halfway to the station before heading over to the clinic . My mind was haywired . When I was the entrance of the clinic did I realise , it was time for my jab /: But I was wondering if , the pain in my heart hurt more or would the pain from the jab be worst ! The answer was obvious .

There was no patient at all , in the clinic . So it was my turn right away ): My jab took less than 1minute . The back part of the jab hurts the most , the start was like not pain . The worst thing is , I've another jab one month from yesterday and six months later . Wtf ! But Mummy shall accompany me every time :D After that , we headed to Din Tai Fung for dinner ! Yummy . I'm beginning to like eating the food there (: I couldn't take prawn / shrimp cause of the jab -.- Went to get groceries and dinner for Dad & Clavin then went back . Mugged till almost 12am .

Cleared one bag of stuff that Mummy had been nagging me to do so , this morning ! And clear my wardrobe (: And my back hurts . Recently , it happens more often esp when it's gonna rain ): Old already -.- LOL ! Anyway , today was more fulfiling then just slacking in front of the computer (: I've no idea what to do with all the books I don't wanna . Any suggestions ?

It hurt-ed alot in the beginning . Maybe it was too sudden , unexpected .

Posting private , if you're invited then read there (:

Tag replies ;

to Cher : Yeah , it was the wrong add but it's okay (: Better late than never !

Love you too ! Yupp , hope to see you soon again :D

to XueQi : Actually not shocking luh . Just that I know you for so long , it's

the first time you read my blog ? Hahah . The one you got is the Vaio CS also ?

You know alot about this kind of things , I'm like damn blur . As long as the colour

nice and overall looks okay , then can already (: You installing the programmes required

by school yourself ?

かようび

2009-03-03T10:13:00.002+08:00

Apologies for yesterday's rushed post !
Bye February , hello March :D
How time flies . It feels like only yesterday was the first day of February ! Now it's already March , and 26more days :D Hopefully March would be a better month .

Yesterday , Dad surprised me when I was leaving the house . He came back out of nowhere . But it's cause I didn't see his sms , I was in middle of another text . So he fetch me to meet Jolene (: If not , I would confirm be late . Thanks :D Crashed Subway for breakfast . For Jolene , it was lunch . Catch up during breakfast / lunch ! Then we slacked there while Jolene did some GB stuff . Ask me to help her count hair pins and safety pins . I was playing GoKart then she asked me to help her . And ended up , I'm the one counting & she's playing my game -.- She made damn alot of noise . Hahah , super paisei . Like the whole Subway can hear her ! Coincidentally , we saw HuiMian & Xiuhui at CityVibe (: Talked alittle before they left for their checkup !

We took the WCplaza shuttle bus , help save money on the rip-off bus fare :D We went to find Shelly then go get present for MsLiang's newborn baby boy , Caden :D Jolene wanted to buy potty for him . But he was only born yesterday ! She was broke , so in the end only I bought the present (: We spent alot of time in the shop , seeing this and that , until the shop owner like super bushuang with us . LOL ! After the present , we went to get card then went to find Cheryl . Had lunch with her , Jolene just sat there with us :D Waited for YongShan to arrive , before heading to Subway for her to get her lunch . Jolene left after that , so it was left the three of us . We went to Tully's where we chat , they did their homework . We left about 5plus cause Cheryl had to go for tuition . The day was great , thanks to you girls :D Thanks !
Mugging during the night until 12am before Dad came to nag me to turn in . I managed to study first part of dictation , was busy writing diary & texting (: Left the other half of dictation and one しゅくだい !

Tag replies ;

to Xueqi : Oh ! But I didn't know you will read and tag de , so that's why surprised !
Hahah . Then you not gonna get any of the notebooks that school recommend ? The Vaio CS has many different ones , I went to website and see . There's a huge variety !

to Jolenetay : Hahah , I'm not confused leh . But okay , I shall call you HuiPing in my post if I remember cause I'm so used to calling you Jolene :D Yeah , it's finally you tagged me too !
It's alright though , better than didn't read at all ! Hahah . Yupp , see you soon :D I will
bring if I remember to borrow from him !

to Pw : It's alright , my dear :D I really wish you could spend the day with me too , but
it's alright I understand ! I remember in Sec3 , I spent my birthday out with you and the badminton girls :D Hahah .

empty silence

2009-03-02T09:13:00.003+08:00

Tag replies ;

♥/爱 JOANNA : Relaxrelax ! Don't bother about him luh .
Some people are like that de . Chill ! I miss you too /: hope to see you soon ? Hahah .

Cher : Glad that you're happy , girlfriend :D Yupp , it's correct !
Love you too (: see you later !

XueQi : Hey pretty :D I'm SUPER DUPER surprised that you even visit my blog ,
and I'm honoured that I'm the first person you ever tagged :D
Really ? That was what I saw in Harvey Norman leh . Cause the one that was priced
2500bucks was very light in weight etc . I wanna it !! But NP didn't recommend that
notebook for school leh /:

Xintian : Hello :D Relax , if you really like the language & put in the effort to master
it then won't be that difficult . Must get used to it , then not scared already (:
Cause we don't know anything at all , so at first would be kind of tough ! I'm
sure you'll be able to master it , if I can so can you :D
I'm fine ! How're you ? Thanks (: have fun too !

Riaa : Hahah yeah ! Damn chio :D I think everywhere in S'pore also can
see leh . Hope everyday also have rainbow (:
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This shall be a fast post ! I've to left the house in about 20mintues , to meet Jolene for breakfast :D Hopefully I won't be late ! Hahah .
Nothing much happened on Saturday , just recieved the post from NP about the ordering of notebook ! Sian , don't have Vaio CS ): But at least they did offer ACER (: Better than nothing , and not the very budget kind . There was a pink notebook that they recommend , but the brand's not that good & damn ex ! They recommend MacBook as well ! But not for my course /:
What should I get ? I really wanna Vaio CS .
Completed one of my shukudai ( homework ) on Saturday as well (: Still left one and have to study for dictation !!

Sunday morning , went for a swim . The sun was just glaring that I could barely open my eyes /: But I got alittle bit darker (: And I got the chance to finally exercise ! Hahah . After O's already on holiday , don't exercise much . Which is like really really bad ): Previous years , each week have to exercise about 3times ! Now like not even once a week . Maybe gonna swimming every Sunday then (: Can exercise and get tanner at the same time !
Coach said I'm talkative -.- am I ? Hahah . He compared me with another girl that's so quiet , doesn't even talk and say that I'm talkative . I known him for 10years , of course will talk more ? If I don't know the person , I won't talk so much or don't even talk can !!
Butterfly kills ! Swam one length of butterfly used up all the energy ): And my stomach muscles ached . This shows I lack of exercise . Hahah ! I wanna exercise but too lazy . And no one pushes me to exercise so yea . Last time , still have MrKoh keep saying have to exercise . And there's taking of height and weight ! Now also don't have , a bit tough to control . Siansian .

Tmr have to go for injection ): Nurse called last Friday to tell me the test results are out and I need injection . Dread it !! But can't run away so have to go through it luh . Mummy will accompany me :D I sound like some little girl -.-
And lastly ,

Happy belated birthday to Gloria & Suriani :D

I can't even be compared to an object . what's this ? Forget it , I give up trying already !

broken mirror

2009-02-27T11:20:00.003+08:00

edited by Jolene :D

I saw a rainbow from my house's balcony on Wednesday :D

Candice saw it too ! Hahah . And we had similar reactions , we saw the rainbow then super high (: When my parents & Clavin came home , they were like -

Them : Eh Celine , we show you magic !

Me : Huh ? Don't be lame luh , what magic .

Them : Go to the balcony and look into the sky

Me : * Walk to the balcony & saw the rainbow (:

Me : Rainbow rainbow leh !

LOL ! I was zi high , as if never seen rainbow before . I think only saw it once or twice only ! Hahah . It's quite difficult to see a rainbow in S'pore .

Eye candy ♥ came for J class yesterday :D I was kind of late so class already started when I arrived . Had Pepper lunch for lunch w Mummy :D I was like so bloated after that ! Siansian . My usual seat in class was taken by another girl cause eye candy & his friend took her place ! So I sat in the third row w another girl (: She's nice too ! We did revision for last lesson's study , did new study too :D Had listening , which was a great shocker at first . Have you ever heard a Japanese convo ? Your reaction would be just a big ' HUH ' , if you don't know Japanese at all . Cause they speak really fast , I mean fast it's reallyreally fast ! During listening prac , teacher played the audio for us . The convo was over before I even registered the first sentence -.-

But get used to it , then okay already :D Cause after a few times , we managed to catch what was said ! The toughest part is , the writing and reading . Chao hard /: Read one sentence , have to read one character by one character . Slow sia ): Must study alot alot , if not I go to class blurblur ! Hahah .

After class , train-ed down to Mummy's office :D Went up to her office , waiting for her to knock off . Started on my shukudai ( homework ) , I see the first sentence & I panicked ): Super confused but I slowly break down the sentence then understand what I've to write ! Hahah . I managed to complete two questions then had to go . Met her boss then we left ! Home sweet home after fetching Clavin (:

Yay ! Last two days of February'09 :D Time flies , it really does . I'm counting down to 30 more days :D Actually , I'm just excited to go out w Jolene . Cause she said we'll have a date on my birthday ! I was afraid I've no one to celebrate w me ): Amanda would be having school , so is Joey , Cheryl & Candice . And Peiwen's in Australia ! I'm excited to meet up w Amanda & Jolene soon again :D

P.S : I've two friends that are named Jolene , if you're wondering (:

It's like a mirror , that was broken a long time ago .

Now I'm trying to fix the pieces back together . I managed to fix a tiny bit of it , I was glad .

But there's still a long way to go . Yet , I'm wondering if I managed to fix the whole thing , would things be okay already ? I'm confused . Though I'm well aware there'll always be those cracks !

I was lost , but someone lent me a hand and I found my way . But it only lasted for what felt like a few seconds and I'm lost again . It's like I bang into a wall now , stuck there . Because I've no idea how to walk from here . Fortunately , I wasn't hopeful . I knew it would be a disappointment . Was it a mistake to start picking up the pieces ? The picking of pieces never fail to hurt some way or another . Why are there so many choices to make ?

Someone once told me about a story , the plane dropped you from high above and let you hit the ground hard . You were very hurt , but after awhile , the plane came back for you . Would you take it again ? What if the plane dropped you from high above once again ? The second time would hurt more .

Tag replies ;

to ♥/爱 JOANNA : Yups , long time didn't see you ! Hahah , of course I miss you alot !

I've already gotten the song , thanks anw :D Loves !

to Candice : Hahah why ? I'm like so short . So have to grow taller , I wanna be 175cm you know . But I'm soooo far away from that ): LOL . Loves !

to Cher : Girlfriend ♥ Thanks , I'll try to cheer up ! Samesame , I can't wait

to see you on Monday (: Next time we go where tgt ? Hahah .

You're welcome ! Your texts made me days too :D Love you !

inmature jerk

2009-02-25T13:52:00.002+08:00

Inmature inmature ! No life asshole !
That person is an effing damn si wen bai lei ! Nothing better to do , then come and send bo liao sms to entertain himself . If I guess his identity correctly , he's really an asshole man . I know him for 4years , he never grows up . Maybe he just turn 16 not very long ago , can't blame ? Always say which girl pretty , not pretty . Who is he to rate whether the girl is pretty or not ?
He never effing look into the mirror and take a look at himself ? -.-

Dragged myself out of bed today , stupid medicine makes me so drowsy /: Had to get up at 8plus then headed over to the clinic after breakfast . Mummy accompanied me :D The clinic was flooded with people , so had to wait my turn . Which was good , cause I was afraid of taking blood test . Siansian . In the end , the doctor said I was in a good condition to take both the blood test and X-ray . I heard already , was like dreading ): Overall , the blood test was successful . It hurt a little , but I had Mummy so yea (: I've gone through worst pain than that anyway ..
And yay ! I actually grew taller (: by 2cm , surprisingly .
After the height & weight , plus eyesight check , I went for X-ray .

Ohmytian . The guy at the X-ray centre was like qian bian !! When he asked me to go into the room for X-ray , said it in a bu shuang way -.- Then when we can leave , he was like " Ni men ke yi zou le "
Without looking at us , he just waved his hand gesturing us to leave . wtf . It's a private X-ray centre somemore , think even the poly clinics service and attitude of the people are like sooo much better !!
Anyway , glad that medical check up is finally done :D Hopefully I don't have to go for any injection . Please please , I hate needles ): After everything , we went to Din Tai Fung for lunch :D And went to get a new flats !

Last night was shitttt . But I managed to sleep , lose sleep over useless people isn't worth it ! Yay , and I had Jolene and Cheryl to listen to my problems this morning :D Thanks , it meant alot . Then Best helped me too :D Thanks Best ♥ I feel alot alot better , with both incidents !
Idk how to move on from here , what my next step should be . But I know that I'm feeling happier (:

J class tmr ! Eye candy ♥ shall make me smile , that's if he turns up for tmr's lesson .
But w/o guys , a girl also can be happy (: After last night , I've gone back to being slightly anti-guy . Hahah .

lost my faith in you

2009-02-24T14:41:00.015+08:00

Photos uploaded :D

But there's more , I've yet to get them so some other day (:

Went to meet Jolene yesterday (: But I was like almost 30min late , really sorry . Luckily , Jolene didn't get angry ! Thanks for waiting too :D Went to CityVibe to get something then bus-ed to wcplaza . We decided to have early lunch , cause I kind of skipped breakfast and it was already 12plus /: Crashed Sakae , again ! Hahah . Sakae two days in a row (: Anyway , if you love to eat salmon , you should visit Sakae from now till 30March ( my birthday :D ) cause they're having promotion 20percent off any salmon dish from the menu ! So it's quite worth luh , esp if you love sashimi :D I'm promoting for Sakae leh . LOL !

We caught up along the way during lunch . I had an awesome lunch time with Jolene :D It was good to meet up with her and just chill together (: After that , we headed to kr . When we walked into the school , the guard was asleep . He was sleeping !! So we just walked in , but dk why he woke up and shouted at us to come back . Wtf . So he asked us the purpose for coming in etcetc . He effing told me off that I wasn't in proper attire . So what if I was wearing flops ? He was like " I can't let you in , wear flops not allowed . Your friend also know must dress in proper attire . Blahblahblah .. " I effing got scolded by him . I was damn pissed can ! When I was a student , I never gotten a scolding from the guard . But I'm now a visitor , what right does he have ? He asked me for my student pass , then exchanged for visitor's pass . So I'm a visitor right ? Then I've the right to wear what I wanna ? It's not like I wear until very revealing or what , it's JUST flops . Must make it such a big hoohaa about it -.- And he was sleeping on his job , still say if we just walk in like that again , he'll come & chase us . zzz ! If he didn't sleep , we won't be able to do that . Still can blame us ?

Went in was to find out more about relief teaching cause Jolene and I went to apply . Like wtf , if not you think I like to walk in and out school for nothing and see your attitude ?! Wanted to leave school but it ended up pouring like siao so we cabbed to wcplaza -.- I know it's like only one minute away ! Cheryl went to get my IC from the guard before we left . Thanks girlfriend :D We went roaming around before Cheryl & Eileen decided where they wanted to have lunch . After their lunch , we bus-ed to vivo . We went shopping :D I ended up buying THREE tops ! Cheryl left halfway for tuition , so Eileen accompained me . After that , home sweet home :D

Ohmytian . Damn sian . I've to go for medical check up like soon , most probably tmr if I'm well enough to take the tests ): Effing sian . I dread medical check ups , esp those that involves needles . Freaks me out ! I've to draw blood for blood investigation reports , and X-rays . Thanks luh , go ECH that's why have to go for blood test ): I'm just afraid of the pain . Hope don't have to do it tmr , I've yet to prepare myself mentally D:

Thanks girlfriend , love and special for being there ytd ♥

It crushed me when I found out . Though it shouldn't matter anymore , since it happened so long ago , but why did it hurt ? I don't know . You must have your reasons , people told me . But I just couldn't accept it , why I hadn't knew a single thing ? Not even that that actually happened . What was I to you ? I doubt that I was important to you , like you clamied in the past . Was I even important ? Why do I always find out things from others and not from you ?

I found the past to be illusional . Your words felt like lies to me , every word , every sentence . It hurts so much to know . Now I understand why ignorance is bliss . I felt foolish to be hopeful , hope that we could be friends . But I guess I still can't do it . You seemed so different , a whole different person to me , not who I knew , not who I loved . I lost my faith in you ):

Tag replies ;

to AikChoo : Hello , hahah thanks for reading & tagging :D

to Pw : Whoa , I'm sooo sad you don't know what day is it ! Hmm ):

Go and count , and you'll know (:

flashback

2009-02-23T09:42:00.003+08:00

The last week of February ! I'm half excited , and half worried . But if you know me , I worry for almost everything and anything . Hahah , so it's not that surprising ? I'm counting down to 34 more days :D If you don't know , you better know what day is it . LOL (:

Outing with Amanda & Jolene ytd was loveddd :D
I went rushing out of the house , thinking I would be late . But I ended up reaching there just in time (: Had to wait for Jolene anyway . Then we train-ed down to City Hall to meet Amanda ! We went to catch , New In Town (: Overall , the show was alright . After the movie , we went to crash sakae for lunch cum dinner (: We ate , talked , emo-ed together and camwhore-d :D We went window shopping for awhile before gonna camwhor-ing again ! Then train-ed back around seven plus . We kept talking about the same topic the whole outing , apparently . It was good cause we got to emo together and have each other's company ! Thanks girls :D The day was awesome :D A day with them never fails to be a great one ♥

P.S : Photos uploading soon :D

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Can't wait for school to re-open . New school , new people :D Luckily , I've JOLENE :D If not , I doubt I'll be looking foward to school that much . And school's recommending us to get just those basic Windows based notebooks . Siansian . Like so budget leh /: I wanna that Sony notebook ! If I could make it to Public Relations & Advertising , I can get Apple notebook . Crap !
Side track , I only ate two meals ytd ! Morning , I ate McGriddles :D Then lunch cum dinner , ate sushi . That's all . I'm surprised ! Good that I'm not eating so muchhh , but it's kinda of inadvisable cause I'm still on medication ): Stupid cough , get lost . Stupid flu , please disappear !

Yay ! Gonna eat ben & jerry's later :D Bye !
& if you read my blog , tag me ? Hahah . I noticed there're people reading , at least some right ?
I've a counter , you know (:
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Tag replies ;
to Cher : Thanks :D Yes , it's duper nice ! Hahah . Miss you too !

to Jolene : Agreed :D It was an awesome day for me toooo !
Yup , we must meet up soon again (: Hahah .

fabulous !

2009-02-20T16:11:00.003+08:00

Happy belated birthday , Amanda :D ♥ you , truckloadssss !

It's Friday :D Another week has passed ! This week has been really really crazyyy . Monday was a terrible day to start the week /: Although it was 4days ago , it seemed very long ago . Anyway , I went to support the girls for their last match with Eileen (: We had lunch in school canteen as usual . After lunch , we went down to the second level outside staff room to put their bags . I was walking with E & Shannon . And Shannon was singing " goodbye my love ... " At that point , it changed my mood greatly . I saw someone I didn't wanna meet , it was just a really bad time . No offence , I don't hate you . I over-reacted so much , I hated myself for not being able to control my emotions . But I knew I just couldn't take another blow , I just wanna move on peacefully . Yet , reality just won't be so smooth sailing , will it ?
Putting that aside , we won Beatty 3-2 :D I'm glad they managed to win at least 2 schools ! So well done (:

I went to visit the doctor on Tuesday with Mummy . She was on MC , so we went to see the doctor . So I'm now currently on medication . Sickening ): But I've not been consistently taking it , guilty to say . After seeing the doctor , we went shopping :D Hahah . I went to get vcds and a pair of sandals (:
Wednesday , the new tv finally came so I'm no longer watching silent movies (: Clapsclaps ! But some unpleasant stuff happened along the day , so overall the day was just ruined .

J class was awesome ytd , despite eye candy's absence :D I struggled alittle through dictation . Frankly , it's getting quite tough lesson after lesson . Now even my shukudai is to be written in Hiragana ! Which means , more effort and time has to be put into J ! Since , I might be taking the year end exam in Dec (: I wanna a cert ! Hahah . And I finally received my enrolment letter ! I've been waiting for it , like forever . There're like tons of stuff to do for enrolment , and one of the most dreaded things is , the medical checkup . Which is required for me , since I'm in ECH ): Please no injections , drawing of blood etcetc ! I hate it . Boo ):

Skipped most of the details esp for Monday ! I fell , slided back , emo-ed and cried but I managed to pull myself up . Thank God (:
Most of the plans for the week was cancelled , sadly . I didn't have lunch with Mummy before J class cause she was still unwell . Didn't meet up with A & J on Wednesday & Thursday cause of some reasons . But will be meeting them on Sunday :D Looking foward !
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Tag replies ;
to Amanda : Hello best friend ! I love you manymany too :D

to Wh : Hahah , don't have to look like one to have one ? Innova don't have chiobu ? Hahah .

to Best : Yeah , that's what my Dad said too . Okay , I'll ask my Dad to consider (:

to Jolene : Samesame ! Maybe we can work tgt then can money to get it , then we'll have the same one (: Hahah . This Sunday , we're meeting . See ya (:

to XiaoTing : Hellohello back :D Hahah .

12days to go !

2009-02-16T09:32:00.002+08:00

I wanna a Song Vaio CS ! But I don't know which model excatly /: Pink and red are reallyreally nice :D Went to see it ytd , it costed about 2500bucks for the one that weights lighter . Hopefully Dad'll somehow agree to get me one . But the odds are rather slim . Poly might recommend notebooks for us , plus we'll have to watch our spending cause of the upcoming short of income /: Oh well .

How did you spend your V day ? Currently , my life majorly revolves around my family (: So it's just family time ! We played word formation all day until 11plus at night . Abit keesiao . Didn't go anywhere cause Clavin has two tuitions to attend . What a bummer ! Luckily I already grad from PriSch & SecSch . If not , I'll be mugging my life for exams etcetc . As the years pass , the competition just gets tougher , don't you realise ? Anyway , I recieved a V day present :D From Clavin ! I was very surprised and touchedd at the same time (: Thank you ! He's the NICEST guy in the entire universal ♥
And I remembered last year , I spent V day in school having Science practical . Hahah . But it was the only year I felt different about that day ! * slaps myself for bringing up the past !

I spent Sunday teaching Clavin oral , basically just helping him with his work . Amazing ? I don't know how I managed it too . Though at some point , I really got slightly frustrated . But I remembered I've to exercise patience , and it was good practice for ECH ? Hahah . So I devoted part of my weekend to teach him from yesterday onwards . Hopefully I don't give up halfway ! Then we went to get new tv , cause the present one's just dying out . I've been watching mute tv for more than a week ): Followed by dinner then home sweet home .

I'm looking foward to spend this week :D From Wednesday onwards , I won't have to watch mute tv anymore (: Thank God ! I'll be meeting Amanda & Jolene twice this week :D JOY ! Then there's J class and lunch with Mummy (:

Have you ever get tired of facing reality ? Because I have , countless of times . Sometimes I wish I can just be dreaming and not live reality . The weird thing was , I wanted to know when is my last day in reality gonna be . Crazy thought . Sometimes , I just run out of the energy to face the terrible parts of reality . It's somehow a dread to face that someone but it's just inevitable to be in contact with him . I shall name him as Mr. Grumpy / Mr.G . I think he pms worse than a girl , and it's like a time bomb . It could go off at any second . He feels like a stranger to me , yet he's one of the closest person in my life . Ironic ! As I grow older , we seemed to have distant apart . I feel that has changed or maybe I was the one who had changed through the years . Because we have nothing much to say to each other , and he doesn't even understand me like how he did . When was the last time he helped me with my studies ? Years and years ago . I just feel so frustrated about these facts but what can I say ? What can I do ?
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Tag replies ;
to Cher : Happy V day to you too , girlfriend :D

to Wh : Hahah , quite true . You didn't have a date for Saturday ?

to Riaa : Thank you :D

to XinTian : Absolutely , girlfriends are the best . And they would be forever , unlike guys ! Hahah . Single life's good (:

it's friday !

2009-02-13T15:13:00.002+08:00

to Best : Yeah , I still remember sec3 we always get to see each other

very often in between lessons . But it was different in sec4 , plus there

wasn't a reason that you should go to the toilet near my class . LOL ! Omg .

Somehow , I miss school alot . HAHAH !

to wh : Thank you :D

to TingTing : Erm okays (:

to XinTian : Haha , thanks ! Same to you :D

My mood's just perfect :D Reasons , I'm just unsure of . I got up really late today , at 11plus . Can't blame , it's due to the fact that I was strongly urged to take my medicine if not , here comes the visit to the doctor /: Flu medicines are mostly drowsy , so that explains it ? Thanks to the medicine , I got up yesterday with my mind in a whirl . I felt strength-less and really sleepy . And I felt so sleepy , that I almost fell asleep in J class ytd . Thankfully , I didn't (: Just hope I'll get better soon , so I'll be medicine-free :D

I went to buy the wallet I wanted yesterday before class , like finally (: Train-ed to meet Mummy for lunch . While waiting for her , a guy came to ask me for direction . This was how it went -

Him : Excuse me , miss . May I ask you a question ?

Me : * Haven't even had the chance to reply

Him : Do you know where can I buy ToTo ?

Me : Pardon ?

Him : You know ToTo , the one that I can bet on etcetc .

Me : I don't know . Sorry

Him : Okay , thanks then .

Firstly , I didn't agree that he could ask his question but still , he went ahead asking me . Zzz . And he said toto , in such a way that it's to-to . Plus , do I even look I'm old enough to buy Toto ? Even if I did , do I look like I gamble ? LOL . Following that , I was sitting down to wait . A chinese lady wanted to approach me for direction . But she decided to ask a working lady that was walking towards her direction instead . The chinese lady asked the another lady in chinese mixed with some Hokkien . Worst still , the another lady didn't understand so the chinese lady used Malay to speak instead . But ended up , the working lady didn't understand Malay either , she just knows English . And I ended up being their translator ? LOL . So I had to listen to Chinese cum Hokkien and translate to English and the other way round . Now I know how tough , the job of a translator is ! Hahah .

I was slightly late for class , and surprisingly Eye candy ♥ was earlier than me (: Dictation was a breeze ! And guess what , Eye candy ♥ tried to cheat during the dictation that he got caught by the teacher . Hahah . But he didn't get a scolding , the teacher merely just asked his two other friends to cover their answers . Cute cute :D Sad thing is , he & his other two friends won't be attending lesson next Thursday ): Changing to Monday's class instead . Hopefully it's just for next week ! Anyway , this week's homework's a challenge . Let's see if I'm able to manage it (: And by lesson 10 , the teacher's gonna write everything in Hiragana ! So dead /: Hahah . Hopefully the next term , I'll still be able to see Eye candy ♥ (:

Andand , why are the adult fares such a rip-off ? And aren't Poly students suppose to have student fare ? It's unfair that JC students are still having their student fares , isn't it ? Last week , I came out of the station with only 2cents left in my card !! TWO CENTS . That has never happened before . And I just top up 10bucks last week . I was left with only 3bucks plus yesterday ! I barely travelled this week , just on Monday & yesterday . So expensive ! Ohmytian . I think a car would be so much better . But , the COE , petrol , parking fees etc . I guess , it just all adds up to around the same amount ? Who says money isn't important ? Now that everything's such a big rip-off .

Happy V day , to couples , and whoever that celebrates this day :D

But most importantly , cheers to SINGLE life :D

Freedom comes with the single life package ! I don't regret it . So if you don't have a date for V day , pamper yourself :D You don't need a date just to be happy !! Live for yourself (:

Enjoy the weekend (:

moving on happily !

2009-02-11T16:00:00.002+08:00

I miss schooling , I miss schooling ! Do you ? Hahah . I woke up without an alarm today , so I got up at 10plus . And my flu's killing me ): But I can't blame it because I don't take medicine consistently . Sometimes I take , sometimes I can't be bothered . And most of the time , I take medicine would be because Mummy nags me to do so . Plus , she keeps repeating to take them , because I've been having both cough & flu even before CNY started . That was like about 2weeks ago ? /: But I haven't stop myself from eating the junk food , sadly . I still eat fastfood , icecream , chocolates . Just everything that's not good for my condition now . HAHAH . I'm just so stubborn ? (: The sad thing is , this reminds me of someone .

Anyway , I got up and went to take out the pink box filled with pink letters that Best wrote for me :D Idk excatly why I did that , I just that . I read through ALL the letters ! After reading all of them , it just makes me miss school so muchhh . Cause I can get to see Best , have recess with her , go for trainings tgt and girl talk :D Of course , with Joey & Jolene as well (: Best has always been a wonderful friend ! She'll be there to make my day , or just keep me company . Although , now we aren't very close as we were in sec3 . But I won't ever forget her , cause she's such an awesome girl :D And we'll always be friends right ? Haha . ♥ you !

Had lunch while watching StepUp :D Omg , I love the music in the show and the dances ! I always regret the fact that I stop learning dance when I watch shows with nice dances . And I know it's quite hard to believe that I actually dance ? HAHAH . It's real , so believe ! I even learnt piano but gave up halfway , cause I'm just not so musically inclined ? Hah .

Went for lunch with Jolene.K yesterday :D We went to get some stuff done at JP , and had a hard time deciding what to have for lunch . In the end , we settled for Macs . Once we were done with buying the stuff we needed , she came over to my house :D She left for church around 5plus . And we'll be meeting up again next Wednesday :D Tgt with Amanda , in celebration for Amanda's birthday ! Looking forward :D

Chiong-ed Jap last night again . I'm proud of myself , that out of the 46 vocab words I've to know by hard . I only got 2 wrong , which means 44 correct :D Mugged and texted at the same time (: Turned in at almost 1AM . Learning J before sleep is good , it makes me so tired that I could fall asleep almost immediately . Don't have the energy to think so muchhh (: And I'm moving on happily ! Not that you care anyway .

J class is tmr :D Eye candy , eye candy ! Haha .

Some of the questions I've in my mind , just doesn't have answers to them . 9days has passed , it seems so fast yet so long . I've been moving on fine , just hoping that I won't slide back . I wanna be stronger against the past (:

" For with God all things are possible . " Mark 10 : 27

Tag replies ;

to Cher : Yeah , I'll try to start on the book soon (:

Yesyes , same here . Let's catch a movie tgt soon ? Haha .

to XinTian : Thanks thanks :D I hope the worst case scenario won't happen .

Nah , I just think I'm old enough to do my part as well ! You deserve a break

anyway , cause you've been studying so hard (: So you aren't lazy yea . Thanks !

a Tuesday !

2009-02-10T09:41:00.002+08:00

to Best : I thought you also have a nano already ? Who else has a reward for O's results ? HAHAH . Relax !
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I was early yesterday , when I went to meet E ! And it was super early ! Unexpected for me to early and super early . I'm like either late , super late or just in time (: HAHAH . Truth is , I don't really like waiting but I don't turn up late on purpose . I left house at the usual time , but I was at the bus stop by 1203 when we said to meet at 1220 ! I sat there waiting for E to come , then for the bus . Met Jolene at the bus stop too :D She was so surprised to see us , her expression was just totally shocked !

We bus-ed to kr , and we didn't have to sign in . Because the list had no more space , and the guard was just lazy to draw the lines again . Can you believe that ?! Headed to canteen by the lift :D Jolene said that we could use the lift , apparently I didn't figure that we could . But we're ex students , so I think it would be okay (: Saw some teachers there , mainly MsHeng , MrHeng & MrKoh . MrKoh came to talk to us while we were eating .

At first , he looked at E's & mine shoes and talked about them . But I thought he was gonna say about the ' invisible ' socks that we were wearing ! You know , he's always catching people with ' no socks ' . He told me , he didn't have to catch me for that . But told me that my FBT was too short /: At least I managed to pass the ' spotcheck ' without having to change anything !

Anyway , we lost to Crescent , 2-3 ! The usual , umpiring & cheering :D We lost the first 3 matches , which results to the dull negative atmosphere . And it was not good for me to be in it , I got so affected by it . Ended up emo-ing on the way back to school -.- It got worst when Dad & Mummy came to fetch me . I got so effing irritated by some comments that were made , which made me on the verge of crying . Dumbdumb ! I just hate it when people look down on us , the badminton girls . I still remember the times when we came back with a lost , then people would be giving ~~shitty~~ comments . And we would get so pissed at them . We did our best , so just save the comments ! Yuhong was the best :D Even though she's injured , she didn't give up playing but continue with the game . She didn't quit halfway , despite the fact that her injury was hurting .
I'm sure they'll try harder for the remaining 3 matches , Jiayou :D

I'm hoping now that February won't pass so quickly . Mao dun ! Dad's gonna lose his job next month , thanks to his stupid boss . So he has to look for another job , which he has yet to get one . Hope he gets a new one soon ! No job equals to , less income therefore , less shopping , just less of everything !!! And he might have to stay at home , if he remains without a job . To accompany me . I'm not thrilled , as you can see :x But if it's the case , do I have a choice ? If he unfortunately doesn't get a job soon , I should get a job & maybe drop studying J ! My J class fees is like 200plus . And talking about money . School's gonna start , which means school fees & books etc . Luckily , money can be saved on the part for uniforms ! That's why Poly's the best :D Ohmy ! I sound like I'm gonna to be poor , when I'm not . Just thinking of the worst case scenario , which I wanna avoid !

getting stronger , day by day (: